Vulnerabilty

have you ever looked into a young girl's eyes when she realizes what all the fuss about boys is? when she gets her 1st kiss....? when she is terrified about being in love.....? that look is vulnerabilty its something you can't create....I remember when i had it. I also remember when it was crushed. For the 1st time in many years I finally feel YoUNg and vulnerable and maybe a little bit of innocence...isnt it crazy how a few months can change your outlook...maybe its just my "new found vulnerablity" but for once maybe things will go right

hEyHEy...ha

the longest yard was pretty good...it wasnt the best....and i didnt get to wear the shirt i wanted so i was bummed! ha but anyways the next nite i went to watch ali cheer an try out for allstars which she did AwEsome! of coarse! then i stayed most of the nite with her haley and lex haha we were bein so funny...the NOSE! gah...it started freakin POURING rain...so i stayed alot longer than planned then i went an got us a blondie YUmMM it was SOOOOO good...when i got home i went to bed cus friday was gonna be a REALLY long day....i wok eup an got dressed and justin got here 1st then sTePPPPPHHHHENNNN then jeff an andrew...so we left for MC OmG stephen had a wreck! i had to be a witness cus some china dude was blaming it on him...and it was NOT his fault!! so we got to mc late...but we didnt miss much...ali made all star!! YeAA go BaBBByy SISSyyyy aw and i got to talk to my lil JmO =) his bro is a Sigma Chi at ole miss...then they won cheer and 2nd in hom pom...so not too bad...they stuck a lib...but fell in the full? come on aliiiii! ha jk i know it is extremely hard work...the boys chilled over here for the day and justin ran around in my clothes....it was nuts...then me an ali toko a nap....then we went to jeffs an watched a freaky ass movie and came home...saturday i took the act it was the easiest one yet and im PRAYING i make a 29...i saw T and lauren and tiff an bec rode with me...uh and blaire...and hmm aww RiVEEERRRSS! ha i had a HoTT boy in my room lauren told me to make freinds but he didnt taLK much..-=( afterwards i was SOOOOO grumpy....i ate an laid around then we went to finish the freaKY movie...it wasnt too bad...today i watched the next top model marathon then went to p[lay with kay then came home...aw jeff is sick and im so worried...its his kidney again...and its the opposite one...hes goin to the dr in the mornin so im babysittin kay while michelle goes with jeff....im supposed to go get my shots tomorrow...but i think im gonna wait...so anywaysss orientation is in like a few days EXCITINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG and olemiss has been winning!! YeAhYeAhh!!! so i guess thats it for now kiss kiss love ya! =)

I'm sorry bloGGy

gah blog ive missed u oh so much im sorry for leaving you! Ha being sorry for mistreatment seems to be a trend! i guess u need a MAJOR update huh?! well lets see I got into the pharmacy school at ole miss and im so excited about leaving! Im graduated so i dont have to see or deal with the retard HCS people....me an my parents had a fight but were cool now...mom got a great job its hard work but great pay so her an dad arent fighting anymore...i dont hang out with anyone much just because im tired of the drama....its time for everything to just chill out...me an jeff are like best friends aw and ali has a boyfriend! hes an absolute sweetheart...she finally found a guy that treats her the way she deserves to be treated! im so happy for her...shes at cheer camp all week...shes such a good and cute lil cheer leader! my lil baby girl is growing up!! rumor has it someone that grad with me is having a baby...all i have to say is im glad its not me...dont get me wrong i want a baby but not now...but i also know how rumors work so.....this may be another silly rumor....drew has decided to say he was sorry...which i find very strange i havent decided whether he deserves the chance tho....uh katie has started her shit again....i dont understand why somepeople cant worry about themselves and not other people....to be honest the only people i worry with or about are the ones im closest to and love i mean those people who act like fools on xanga...they dont realize that while they sit there trying to mess with people they r instead only making their lives worse...oh well not my problem i guess...aw blog rnt u excited that u get to hear my crazy issues haha tonight im goin to see the longest yard...so ill write about that later but i need to go get a shirt so ill ttul love you blogger!

survey results
You Know It's All About You (Over 100 Questions)
.:General Info:.
Name:: StEpHanYyy
Age:: 18
Gender:: GiRl
Height:: 5'1"
Birthday:: SePt 30,1986
Hair Color:: BlOnDe
Describe yourself in one word:: HoNeSt
Describe your personality in one word:: NuTTs
.:School Life:.
What grade are you in:: 12th
What school do you go to:: HcS(hell central school) soon to be at OLE MISS THO!!
And where is that:: B-town
Do you get good grades:: yehh
Favorite Subject:: none....Science?
.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference:: BoYYssS
Do you have a bf/gf:: NooOooO =(
If so,what is their name:: uh!!
How long have you been dating:: uh!!
Do you consider yourself in love with them:: blahhhh!
If so,why:: gah!
Have you had your first kiss:: yehhss sir
If so,when:: uhm 8th grade
Do you have a crush:: I wouldnt call it a crush....?
If so,what is their name:: dont worry about that they know...
Why do you like them:: they make me smile...i love to be held and kissed by them...
Do they know you:: well obviously
Do they know that you like them:: yehss
How long have you known them:: 3 yrs
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s):: MeLLyyY
How long have you been friends:: 2 yrs
Do you consider yourself a good friend:: yehh
How many friends do you think you have:: like maybe 3 or 4 true friends
Most popular:: matt
Most conceited:: ha...shouldnt say
Friendliest:: anna or liz
Meanest:: drew =/
Prettiest:: melly is beautiful =)
Craziest:: me an mel
Oldest:: like known the longest? laura...
oldest person uhm summer or erik
Youngest:: Ali or chase
Most recent:: evan or swatter
Smartest:: anna
.:Favorites:.
Food:: outbackk
Person:: drew mel ali or britty
Number:: 22
Show:: sex and the cityy
Letter:: uhmm The one i wrote as a GOOD BYE....it was AWESOME!!
Song:: right now...brokedown boulevard or since u been gone
Band/Singer:: John Mayer
Place in the world:: my BeDddD
Season:: SuMMmEEr
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation:: me an the man of my DREeEaAms alone on a romantic get away to anywhere...with out phones or people to bother us...
Dream House:: i dont want a HUGE house...i jus want a nice house that fits me and my family's personality
Dream Room:: a butter colored room with pink satin sheets and the most comfortable bed in the world with a walk in spa tub and tons of great candles
Location:: my location? well im in my room in the princess chair in front of the computer
.:Last Time You:.:
Watched T.V.:: right now...
Went to the bathroom:: uhm? hour ago?
Ate:: 2 hours ago...OrAnGeSSs
Slept:: uhm 11?
Listened to music:: now..
Used the phone:: around 10...matty boy called
IMed someone/Got an IM:: ha a whilee
Went to school:: uhm las thursday
Played a game:: longgg time
Took a shower:: a took a bath does thaat count? haha shower las nite...bath aroun 2
Hugged someone:: ?? my mom tonight..
Went on a date:: kinda las nite? but not really...havent been on a real date since this summer how terrible is that!
Wrote a letter:: a whilee
Cried:: yesterday
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged:: momm
Kissed:: drew
Laughed at:: britt
Cried over:: drew
IMed/Got an IM from:: whitt
Hurt:: thats a tough one..matt or wesley
Talked to:: mom
Spoke to on the phone:: matt
Ate with:: britt
Spent time with:: mom
Saw:: mom
Missed:: drew
Heard:: mom
Played with:: pug
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country:: nopee
Been out of state/province:: yessss
Done drugs:: uhm...
Done anything illegal:: yesss
Slapped someone:: yehh
Cut yourself:: yehh
Played an instrument:: noo
Hurt someone for no reason:: yehhh
Hurt someone:: yehhh
Killed an insect/bug:: yess
Gotten stung by a bee:: yehs
Lied to your parents:: yehh
Stole Something:: noo
Kissed Someone:: yesss
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap:: rock
Singing or Songwriting:: singin
Tennis Shoes or Sandals:: sandals
Phone or Computer:: phone
Biking or Skating:: bikin
Analog or Digital:: ???
Coke or Pepsi:: coke
Sprite or Sierra Mist:: sprite
MTV or VH1:: FUSE
R&B or Country:: country
Cingular or T-Mobile:: cingular
Cats or Dogs:: both!
AIM or Yahoo:: aim
Bzoink or Quizilla:: bzoink
.:Word Association:.
Birthday:: cake
Peanut:: butter
Good Charlotte:: rock
Ravioli:: spaghetti
President Bush:: cute
T.V.:: show
Rock:: roll
Rap:: rock
Chef:: boyardee
Boys:: suckk
Girls:: suckk
Calendar:: girl
Fan:: club
Evil:: boy
.:Right Now:
Eating:: nothin
Drinking:: nothin
Watching:: addicted to love
What is on your mousepad:: notingg
What are you doing:: nothinn
What song are you listening to:: scars
What's in your CD player:: uhm burnt cds
Wearing:: tank top an shorts
Time:: 12:37
Month:: december
Day of the Month:: 20th
Year:: 2004
Day of the week:: monday
What website are you on:: bzoink
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad:: none
What color is your keyboard:: black
What is the phrase you use the most online:: nuthin
Did you like this survey:: yeh
Are you sad that it's over:: nahh
What are you gonna do after this survey is over:: another one prolly
Do you like pop-up ads:: noooooooo
How long have you been online:: donno


survey results
Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Stephany WeSt
Birthplace ::: JaCkTowN
Age ::: 18
Age you act ::: haha sometimes 2 sometime 20
Current location ::: B-TowN
Eye color ::: OcEaN BluE
Hair color ::: BloNde
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: AmBiDexTrouss
Zodiac sign? ::: LibRa
Height? ::: 5'1"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Scotch Irish
Your hair ::: Long Blonde
Your fears ::: Relationships, Being alone forever, failing
Your perfect room ::: butter colored walls and pink patin everything and lots of golds
What you practically do in a day ::: sleep and eat
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: hmm well punk fun
Phrases you overuse ::: hmm well holy shit holy hell
Your first thought when you wake up ::: uhhhhh what time is it?!?
Your greatest accomplishment ::: uhm i guess softball stuff
Something you want to do ::: in the near future? fall in lovvvveee haha
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: DependsS on MyY MooOD
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: McDoNAldS but i dont like either!!
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: uhm Christina Is Better but Britt iS related
Chocolate or vanilla ::: Vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::: neither?
Black or white ::: white
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: BILLS!
Burgers or hot dogs ::: I HATE BOTH!!! UHHHH!
Egypt or France ::: FrAncE
Rock or rap ::: RocKK imma punk kinda girl~
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: NooO
Cuss ::: uH yeh ReAL bad habit! I used to NEVERRRRRR
Sing well ::: hahHAHA uh NO
Sing in the shower ::: yehhh man
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: ...yes....
Believe in yourself ::: sometimes....
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: yehh i get bored easily..
Play an instrument ::: NoOO
Want to go to college? ::: yEHpp
Want to get married? ::: YESSSSSSS
Want to have children? ::: YehH
Think you're a health freak? ::: noo
Get along with your parents ::: yeh somewhat
Get along with your siblings? ::: YEhS
Think you're popular ::: nOoOOOOOo
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: no but i am monday!
Drank alchohal ::: haha no...i tried but i culdnt drink it it was DISGUSTINNNNG!
Smoke ::: nooo
Get high ::: nooo
Done any drugs ::: nooo
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: noo
Been on stage ::: uhm? no?
Gone skinny dipping ::: no its freakin COLLDDDD
Been dumped ::: hah NO
Dyed your hair ::: uhm nAh Uh
Stolen anything ::: noo..
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: hahahahhahhahah well....
Loudest ::: hm ?
Most shy ::: matt
Blondest ::: me or mel
Smartest ::: anna
Kindest ::: liz
Best personality ::: hahahah well i like me an mel's but.....others feel differently
Most talented ::: anna
Best singer ::: anna
Most ghetto ::: wesley
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: uhm .....same as craziest =P
Pain in the ass ::: hahaha WOW imagine that SAME AS DRAMA QUEEN!
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: WOWOWOOWOWOWOW that would be the same one toooooooo
Funniest ::: brittyy
Best person for advice ::: britt or anna
Dependable ::: thomas
Trustworthy ::: mel
Druggie ::: hahahah....wesley?
Most likely to end up in jail ::: ....ryan or matt
Person you've known the longest ::: anna
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont member las nites but the other nite i dreamed me an blair were takin a nap!
Last nightmare ::: uhm?? i dreamed my aunt an dad died in a plane crashCar ride ::: went to the movies an home
Last time you cried ::: las nite...=(
Last movie seen ::: tonight i watched spanglish
Last movie rented ::: uhm me an ryan rented spiderman 2
Last book read ::: haha????
Last word said ::: out loud? proly nite ali
Last curse word said ::: uhm? fuck ahahahha my bad!!!
Last time you laugh ::: out loud? i dunno i guess when i won 100 bucks!!!
Last phone call ::: thomas called
Last CD played ::: uhm the one in the car on the way home...its burnt
Last song you listened to ::: uhm im listenin to F stop blues right now
Last annoyance ::: hahahahah...my PhOneE CaLL
Last IM ::: uhm i guess wes
Last weird encounter ::: lord i have weird encounters alot.....
Last person you hugged ::: nana i guess
Last person you yelled at ::: ali?
Last time you wore a skirt ::: couple days ago b4 it got frigid
Last time you've been evil ::: i guess when me an ali fought bout noodles
Sarcastic? ::: haha IM ALWAYS SARCASTIC
Last time you fought with your parents ::: its been a while actually
Last time you wished upon a star ::: thats been a while too
Played Truth or Dare ::: haha that has been a while....
Spent quality time alone ::: rite nowwwww
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: noo
Do you feel lonely ::: yehhhsss
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: hahahah well yeh...
How about egging someone's house ::: nahhh
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: huh?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: yehh
Yo Momma ::: what?
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: yehhh
What do you think of George Bush? ::: sweetheart!
Any secret fetishes? ::: nahh
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: noooo
How many languages do you speak? ::: 3
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: noo
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::: noo

Sunday, December 26, 2004
Why
by Avril Lavigne
Album
: My World (DVD + CD)
Why...
Do you always do this to me
Why...
Couldn't you just see it through me
How come
You act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far... a-way
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
D'you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
Hey...
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play...
A different game than what we're playing
Try...
To look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to be-lieve
I'm gonna let us fall apart
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even when you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
D'you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
So go on and think about
Whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about
Whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel
You feel
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
Do you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why



ok so i think WE all know that song is to YOU drew...but anyway its a awesome song that i feel like listenin to OVER and OVER and OVER again to...las nite i was tellin mom how scarred i am from dating ryan and how im TERRIFIED of caring for people...esp the people who do care for me.i dont want to get hurt again and ive built up all these walls that someone will actually have to PROVE how much they care...i dunno? i doubt it will ever happen...tonight me an mom went to see spanglish she cried!! it was a sweeeet movie...now me an ali are watchin you got served..i want some plans for new years but i cant do the hcs thing again...i cant put up with bein talked bout...so uhm i dont know what im gonna do...monday were goin to karens i MIGHT stay with ali i dunno...?? we will see...anyways i know this is sorta short and all but i cant get to INTO my emotions these dayss so thats itt
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

Currently PlayingScream & WhisperBy Edwin Mccainromeo and julietsee related
MeRrRy Christmas....not that im like miss christmas cheer or anything its just that well im tryin haha...i have such a bad headache!! anyways uh i guess ill tell u bout today huh...well last night ryan called and anywaay i told him i would spend the day with him so when i got up an dressed he came an got me an we watched coyote ugly then we had christmas with his fam i really love his family...they make me feel like im welcome...i dunno they r awesome...anyway i talked to them for a long time then i came home...when i got home we were goin to look at lights in canton with my aunt and "odd" cousin...but it wasnt too bad...when i got home i ate then talked to thomas...he doesnt believe im really FED UP with the crap ive been dealing with since august but honestly...im thru...i deserve MUCH more...wesley called while i was at ryans an i couldnt get to my phone fast enough so i sent him a text....but he got mad and i really didnt mean it that way at all...i jus have a real hard time bein sweet when i care about someone and they dont care back...(cough drew you too) anyway for some reason im EXTreEMELY EMOTIONAlllL tonight ...i cried bcus i feel so ALONE and i dont think i will ever be happy....i find something wrong with everyone and everything...especially those people who really do love me...but i guess thats how these things workk ...isnt it awesome how u can have people your totally honest with...brittany and jessica know every bad thing that has happened to me and they still love me so much...girls yall are amazing...seriously....i love yall....

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
i was jus sittin here talkin an thinkin and it occurred to me that drew treats me like shit when im the only one of my girl friends who has ever treated him the way i do...he was hooked on mel an jess both an neither of them cared half as much as i do...WHAT is that?! hm oh well anyways... i downloaded some awesome songs YeAaA!~ AND MATT MIGHT COME SEE ME TOMORROW SUPPER YEAA! anyways im thinkin its time for bed nitee
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Monday, December 20, 2004

Currently PlayingGutterflowerBy Goo Goo Dollssympathysee related
Carrie: Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.

today i talked to wesley and he has been botherin me so bad lately...we finally talked bout it...i know ive hurt him i know that i changed but i never replaced him like he said i did... i know ive made mistakes but IM SORRY u were my best friend how do u expect me NOT to care? i guess i jus felt like the things we said to each other meant something...but maybe i was wrong..Im here fore u always wesley..maybe oneday u will see that u cant block people out of your life...you will only hurt yourself....

anyways...uhm i saw drew for a millisecond like i told u already..and i miss him so bad but im slowly gettin over it...hes slowin not mattering as much...i guess bc lately i have found people that make me feel special and important and dont USE me...im worth alot more than ive been treated the past couple of months and i guess if he doesnt see that and realize that then its time to let go...I guess its jus hard bc ivebecome so attached...

britt stayed with me this weeken i love her so much she is so awesome she got me my rainbow brite shirt for xmas which made me veryvery happy...i cant believ christmas is only in like 5 days!! gah crazy! this christmas is gonna suck but i think im gonna learn alot from it so its ok...


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hey xanga yesterday i laid aroun most of the day then i decided that i would go to the movies so well all got dressed haha and got swatter...aw he paid for all of us to go HOW sweet! anyway the movie sucked so we came home an then went to bed it was fun tho...today i have laid around the house...ryan came an bugged me for a while then drew came over for a millisecond...so i called matt and hes supposed to call me back...mel was a PUNK last night! oh well...uhm me an wesley had a "ChAt"...ill tell u bout that later im jus fill in u in...ill get emotional LaTeER!!
Sunday, December 19, 2004

Currently PlayingSpeakBy Lindsay Lohan, Lindsay LohanOversee related
Over
by Lindsay Lohan
Album
: Speak
I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
As if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
As if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, and I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)
My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
As if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
(Tell me that it’s over, over)
Honestly, tell me
Honestly, tell me
Don’t tell me that it’s over
Don’t tell me that it’s over
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hey hey uhm yesterday me an brit an ali all went to eat at stix it was greatt then we went lookin at xmas lights an was gonna go to mels but she didnt answer!! so we came home an laid in the bed hhaha we didnt do much but eat an sleep and such....then we weer gonna go to a party but it wasnt worht it so mel david an swatter came over aw they made my poor deer hump =( sad! haha me an brit made a AWESOMEE webring an shes stayin tonight =) but uhm thats it for now!
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Saturday, December 18, 2004

Currently PlayingDestiny FulfilledBy Destiny's ChildSoldierssee relatedwell hello hello ...last night i prolly should have wrote but i didnt so ill try to explain everything..yesterday mornin i was supposed to wake up an go to drews but i didnt so i woke up at 12:20 an i felt bad most of the day...that night drew was gay so i decided to take matters into my own hands and have some fun...so ryan came an got me an we watched a movie...we had SO much fun gah brought back old times!! his mom is so sweet and she actually LIKES me...omg her car is SO SO fine she got what i wanted haha i told him i was pissed an gonna steal it!! !!! BLACK 2005 MERCEDES CLK!! EXACTLY WHAT I WANT!!! crazzzzzzzzzzzzy! his new car is extremely nice too! aw and hes movinggggggg! sad haha ok so maybe not bc he will be closer but i mean i will be gone so ? anyways i got home at like 1:30 an drew had been freakin out ALLLLL night bc for once i was like F* U! haha and jus ignored him so he was WoRrRiEdDd haha UTOHHHHH! so i called him back then he called me back and we argued....he wanted me to come over at freakin 1:30...and i told him i would continue to be difficult until he stopped bein difficult! i called him at 4 to wake him up so he could hunt but he said he was goin back to sleep so i dunno whatever...me an my BrItTtTtYyYy are goin to eat tonight YEAAAAAAAAA! im pumped!! i love my lil girlllll!! anyways i have alot on my mind now bc i KNOW that ryan treats me like a goddess and always has and his family absolutely loves me but i care so so so so so much about drew and i still want it to work SOOOO bad so yeh im totally confused!!! but w/e i guess im gonna go eat an take a shower ill write laterrrrrr byee
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Currently PlayingHotel PaperBy Michelle BranchGoodbye to Yousee relatedhey xang...i did SO good on my exams today 99 an 92 =) yeh i was pumped but then i came home and had the worst day ive cried more today than like the past 2 years! gah it was so terrible 1st i waited on ali to eat bcus i was tryin to be sweet...but then she called and was so mean to me an like went to eat with the cheerleaders an said i culdnt go so that made me mad and i know thats retarded but ive been sensitive so it hurt then mom yelled at me all day an that hurt then i got britt an shane had a wreck! it was funny/terrible! i know ur like woah how can it be both but he was only goin 45! then we went to the mall and i dunno i kept thinkin an i was tryin SO HARD to be mean an i jus culdnt...what is it about him that makes me care? and want him? it hurts SOOSOOOOO bad! anyways i went to mels' an me her an dave chilled an def didnt study...david read us readers digest an made me cry they were dyin out laughin cus i would cry over anything...so i finally came home an i talked to matt he makes me be in a better mood so i knew he would help..and it did...then i had to work some stuff out ive been real upset cus i feel so unwanted and uncared about and its hurt alot but maybe things will get better i doubt it...anyway i need anap! haha nite =)
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Monday, December 13, 2004

Currently PlayingGet a GripBy AerosmithCRYINsee related
Cryin'
by Aerosmith
Album
: Get A Grip
There was a time
When I was so brokenhearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind, listen
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
Do what you do-down on me
Now there's not even breathin' room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we're makin love
Must be one and the same
It's down on me
Yeah, I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
Do what you do to me
'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
'Till you give your heart away
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me, baby, baby, baby
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
Do what you do down to, down to, down to, down to
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery

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