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Vulnerabilty

2005-07-01T05:03:00.000-07:00

have you ever looked into a young girl's eyes when she realizes what all the fuss about boys is? when she gets her 1st kiss....? when she is terrified about being in love.....? that look is vulnerabilty its something you can't create....I remember when i had it. I also remember when it was crushed. For the 1st time in many years I finally feel YoUNg and vulnerable and maybe a little bit of innocence...isnt it crazy how a few months can change your outlook...maybe its just my "new found vulnerablity" but for once maybe things will go right

hEyHEy...ha

2005-06-12T22:06:00.000-07:00

the longest yard was pretty good...it wasnt the best....and i didnt get to wear the shirt i wanted so i was bummed! ha but anyways the next nite i went to watch ali cheer an try out for allstars which she did AwEsome! of coarse! then i stayed most of the nite with her haley and lex haha we were bein so funny...the NOSE! gah...it started freakin POURING rain...so i stayed alot longer than planned then i went an got us a blondie YUmMM it was SOOOOO good...when i got home i went to bed cus friday was gonna be a REALLY long day....i wok eup an got dressed and justin got here 1st then sTePPPPPHHHHENNNN then jeff an andrew...so we left for MC OmG stephen had a wreck! i had to be a witness cus some china dude was blaming it on him...and it was NOT his fault!! so we got to mc late...but we didnt miss much...ali made all star!! YeAA go BaBBByy SISSyyyy aw and i got to talk to my lil JmO =) his bro is a Sigma Chi at ole miss...then they won cheer and 2nd in hom pom...so not too bad...they stuck a lib...but fell in the full? come on aliiiii! ha jk i know it is extremely hard work...the boys chilled over here for the day and justin ran around in my clothes....it was nuts...then me an ali toko a nap....then we went to jeffs an watched a freaky ass movie and came home...saturday i took the act it was the easiest one yet and im PRAYING i make a 29...i saw T and lauren and tiff an bec rode with me...uh and blaire...and hmm aww RiVEEERRRSS! ha i had a HoTT boy in my room lauren told me to make freinds but he didnt taLK much..-=( afterwards i was SOOOOO grumpy....i ate an laid around then we went to finish the freaKY movie...it wasnt too bad...today i watched the next top model marathon then went to p[lay with kay then came home...aw jeff is sick and im so worried...its his kidney again...and its the opposite one...hes goin to the dr in the mornin so im babysittin kay while michelle goes with jeff....im supposed to go get my shots tomorrow...but i think im gonna wait...so anywaysss orientation is in like a few days EXCITINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG and olemiss has been winning!! YeAhYeAhh!!! so i guess thats it for now kiss kiss love ya! =)

I'm sorry bloGGy

2005-06-08T13:30:00.000-07:00

gah blog ive missed u oh so much im sorry for leaving you! Ha being sorry for mistreatment seems to be a trend! i guess u need a MAJOR update huh?! well lets see I got into the pharmacy school at ole miss and im so excited about leaving! Im graduated so i dont have to see or deal with the retard HCS people....me an my parents had a fight but were cool now...mom got a great job its hard work but great pay so her an dad arent fighting anymore...i dont hang out with anyone much just because im tired of the drama....its time for everything to just chill out...me an jeff are like best friends aw and ali has a boyfriend! hes an absolute sweetheart...she finally found a guy that treats her the way she deserves to be treated! im so happy for her...shes at cheer camp all week...shes such a good and cute lil cheer leader! my lil baby girl is growing up!! rumor has it someone that grad with me is having a baby...all i have to say is im glad its not me...dont get me wrong i want a baby but not now...but i also know how rumors work so.....this may be another silly rumor....drew has decided to say he was sorry...which i find very strange i havent decided whether he deserves the chance tho....uh katie has started her shit again....i dont understand why somepeople cant worry about themselves and not other people....to be honest the only people i worry with or about are the ones im closest to and love i mean those people who act like fools on xanga...they dont realize that while they sit there trying to mess with people they r instead only making their lives worse...oh well not my problem i guess...aw blog rnt u excited that u get to hear my crazy issues haha tonight im goin to see the longest yard...so ill write about that later but i need to go get a shirt so ill ttul love you blogger!

2004-12-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

survey results
You Know It's All About You (Over 100 Questions)
.:General Info:.
Name:: StEpHanYyy
Age:: 18
Gender:: GiRl
Height:: 5'1"
Birthday:: SePt 30,1986
Hair Color:: BlOnDe
Describe yourself in one word:: HoNeSt
Describe your personality in one word:: NuTTs
.:School Life:.
What grade are you in:: 12th
What school do you go to:: HcS(hell central school) soon to be at OLE MISS THO!!
And where is that:: B-town
Do you get good grades:: yehh
Favorite Subject:: none....Science?
.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference:: BoYYssS
Do you have a bf/gf:: NooOooO =(
If so,what is their name:: uh!!
How long have you been dating:: uh!!
Do you consider yourself in love with them:: blahhhh!
If so,why:: gah!
Have you had your first kiss:: yehhss sir
If so,when:: uhm 8th grade
Do you have a crush:: I wouldnt call it a crush....?
If so,what is their name:: dont worry about that they know...
Why do you like them:: they make me smile...i love to be held and kissed by them...
Do they know you:: well obviously
Do they know that you like them:: yehss
How long have you known them:: 3 yrs
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s):: MeLLyyY
How long have you been friends:: 2 yrs
Do you consider yourself a good friend:: yehh
How many friends do you think you have:: like maybe 3 or 4 true friends
Most popular:: matt
Most conceited:: ha...shouldnt say
Friendliest:: anna or liz
Meanest:: drew =/
Prettiest:: melly is beautiful =)
Craziest:: me an mel
Oldest:: like known the longest? laura...
oldest person uhm summer or erik
Youngest:: Ali or chase
Most recent:: evan or swatter
Smartest:: anna
.:Favorites:.
Food:: outbackk
Person:: drew mel ali or britty
Number:: 22
Show:: sex and the cityy
Letter:: uhmm The one i wrote as a GOOD BYE....it was AWESOME!!
Song:: right now...brokedown boulevard or since u been gone
Band/Singer:: John Mayer
Place in the world:: my BeDddD
Season:: SuMMmEEr
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation:: me an the man of my DREeEaAms alone on a romantic get away to anywhere...with out phones or people to bother us...
Dream House:: i dont want a HUGE house...i jus want a nice house that fits me and my family's personality
Dream Room:: a butter colored room with pink satin sheets and the most comfortable bed in the world with a walk in spa tub and tons of great candles
Location:: my location? well im in my room in the princess chair in front of the computer
.:Last Time You:.:
Watched T.V.:: right now...
Went to the bathroom:: uhm? hour ago?
Ate:: 2 hours ago...OrAnGeSSs
Slept:: uhm 11?
Listened to music:: now..
Used the phone:: around 10...matty boy called
IMed someone/Got an IM:: ha a whilee
Went to school:: uhm las thursday
Played a game:: longgg time
Took a shower:: a took a bath does thaat count? haha shower las nite...bath aroun 2
Hugged someone:: ?? my mom tonight..
Went on a date:: kinda las nite? but not really...havent been on a real date since this summer how terrible is that!
Wrote a letter:: a whilee
Cried:: yesterday
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged:: momm
Kissed:: drew
Laughed at:: britt
Cried over:: drew
IMed/Got an IM from:: whitt
Hurt:: thats a tough one..matt or wesley
Talked to:: mom
Spoke to on the phone:: matt
Ate with:: britt
Spent time with:: mom
Saw:: mom
Missed:: drew
Heard:: mom
Played with:: pug
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country:: nopee
Been out of state/province:: yessss
Done drugs:: uhm...
Done anything illegal:: yesss
Slapped someone:: yehh
Cut yourself:: yehh
Played an instrument:: noo
Hurt someone for no reason:: yehhh
Hurt someone:: yehhh
Killed an insect/bug:: yess
Gotten stung by a bee:: yehs
Lied to your parents:: yehh
Stole Something:: noo
Kissed Someone:: yesss
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap:: rock
Singing or Songwriting:: singin
Tennis Shoes or Sandals:: sandals
Phone or Computer:: phone
Biking or Skating:: bikin
Analog or Digital:: ???
Coke or Pepsi:: coke
Sprite or Sierra Mist:: sprite
MTV or VH1:: FUSE
R&B or Country:: country
Cingular or T-Mobile:: cingular
Cats or Dogs:: both!
AIM or Yahoo:: aim
Bzoink or Quizilla:: bzoink
.:Word Association:.
Birthday:: cake
Peanut:: butter
Good Charlotte:: rock
Ravioli:: spaghetti
President Bush:: cute
T.V.:: show
Rock:: roll
Rap:: rock
Chef:: boyardee
Boys:: suckk
Girls:: suckk
Calendar:: girl
Fan:: club
Evil:: boy
.:Right Now:
Eating:: nothin
Drinking:: nothin
Watching:: addicted to love
What is on your mousepad:: notingg
What are you doing:: nothinn
What song are you listening to:: scars
What's in your CD player:: uhm burnt cds
Wearing:: tank top an shorts
Time:: 12:37
Month:: december
Day of the Month:: 20th
Year:: 2004
Day of the week:: monday
What website are you on:: bzoink
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad:: none
What color is your keyboard:: black
What is the phrase you use the most online:: nuthin
Did you like this survey:: yeh
Are you sad that it's over:: nahh
What are you gonna do after this survey is over:: another one prolly
Do you like pop-up ads:: noooooooo
How long have you been online:: donno

survey results
Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Stephany WeSt
Birthplace ::: JaCkTowN
Age ::: 18
Age you act ::: haha sometimes 2 sometime 20
Current location ::: B-TowN
Eye color ::: OcEaN BluE
Hair color ::: BloNde
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: AmBiDexTrouss
Zodiac sign? ::: LibRa
Height? ::: 5'1"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Scotch Irish
Your hair ::: Long Blonde
Your fears ::: Relationships, Being alone forever, failing
Your perfect room ::: butter colored walls and pink patin everything and lots of golds
What you practically do in a day ::: sleep and eat
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: hmm well punk fun
Phrases you overuse ::: hmm well holy shit holy hell
Your first thought when you wake up ::: uhhhhh what time is it?!?
Your greatest accomplishment ::: uhm i guess softball stuff
Something you want to do ::: in the near future? fall in lovvvveee haha
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: DependsS on MyY MooOD
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: McDoNAldS but i dont like either!!
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: uhm Christina Is Better but Britt iS related
Chocolate or vanilla ::: Vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::: neither?
Black or white ::: white
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: BILLS!
Burgers or hot dogs ::: I HATE BOTH!!! UHHHH!
Egypt or France ::: FrAncE
Rock or rap ::: RocKK imma punk kinda girl~
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: NooO
Cuss ::: uH yeh ReAL bad habit! I used to NEVERRRRRR
Sing well ::: hahHAHA uh NO
Sing in the shower ::: yehhh man
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: ...yes....
Believe in yourself ::: sometimes....
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: yehh i get bored easily..
Play an instrument ::: NoOO
Want to go to college? ::: yEHpp
Want to get married? ::: YESSSSSSS
Want to have children? ::: YehH
Think you're a health freak? ::: noo
Get along with your parents ::: yeh somewhat
Get along with your siblings? ::: YEhS
Think you're popular ::: nOoOOOOOo
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: no but i am monday!
Drank alchohal ::: haha no...i tried but i culdnt drink it it was DISGUSTINNNNG!
Smoke ::: nooo
Get high ::: nooo
Done any drugs ::: nooo
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: noo
Been on stage ::: uhm? no?
Gone skinny dipping ::: no its freakin COLLDDDD
Been dumped ::: hah NO
Dyed your hair ::: uhm nAh Uh
Stolen anything ::: noo..
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: hahahahhahhahah well....
Loudest ::: hm ?
Most shy ::: matt
Blondest ::: me or mel
Smartest ::: anna
Kindest ::: liz
Best personality ::: hahahah well i like me an mel's but.....others feel differently
Most talented ::: anna
Best singer ::: anna
Most ghetto ::: wesley
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: uhm .....same as craziest =P
Pain in the ass ::: hahaha WOW imagine that SAME AS DRAMA QUEEN!
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: WOWOWOOWOWOWOW that would be the same one toooooooo
Funniest ::: brittyy
Best person for advice ::: britt or anna
Dependable ::: thomas
Trustworthy ::: mel
Druggie ::: hahahah....wesley?
Most likely to end up in jail ::: ....ryan or matt
Person you've known the longest ::: anna
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont member las nites but the other nite i dreamed me an blair were takin a nap!
Last nightmare ::: uhm?? i dreamed my aunt an dad died in a plane crashCar ride ::: went to the movies an home
Last time you cried ::: las nite...=(
Last movie seen ::: tonight i watched spanglish
Last movie rented ::: uhm me an ryan rented spiderman 2
Last book read ::: haha????
Last word said ::: out loud? proly nite ali
Last curse word said ::: uhm? fuck ahahahha my bad!!!
Last time you laugh ::: out loud? i dunno i guess when i won 100 bucks!!!
Last phone call ::: thomas called
Last CD played ::: uhm the one in the car on the way home...its burnt
Last song you listened to ::: uhm im listenin to F stop blues right now
Last annoyance ::: hahahahah...my PhOneE CaLL
Last IM ::: uhm i guess wes
Last weird encounter ::: lord i have weird encounters alot.....
Last person you hugged ::: nana i guess
Last person you yelled at ::: ali?
Last time you wore a skirt ::: couple days ago b4 it got frigid
Last time you've been evil ::: i guess when me an ali fought bout noodles
Sarcastic? ::: haha IM ALWAYS SARCASTIC
Last time you fought with your parents ::: its been a while actually
Last time you wished upon a star ::: thats been a while too
Played Truth or Dare ::: haha that has been a while....
Spent quality time alone ::: rite nowwwww
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: noo
Do you feel lonely ::: yehhhsss
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: hahahah well yeh...
How about egging someone's house ::: nahhh
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: huh?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: yehh
Yo Momma ::: what?
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: yehhh
What do you think of George Bush? ::: sweetheart!
Any secret fetishes? ::: nahh
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: noooo
How many languages do you speak? ::: 3
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: noo
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::: noo

2004-12-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

Sunday, December 26, 2004
Why
by Avril Lavigne
Album
: My World (DVD + CD)
Why...
Do you always do this to me
Why...
Couldn't you just see it through me
How come
You act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far... a-way
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
D'you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
Hey...
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play...
A different game than what we're playing
Try...
To look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to be-lieve
I'm gonna let us fall apart
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even when you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
D'you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why
So go on and think about
Whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about
Whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel
You feel
I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me
Are you and me still together
Tell me
Do you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why

ok so i think WE all know that song is to YOU drew...but anyway its a awesome song that i feel like listenin to OVER and OVER and OVER again to...las nite i was tellin mom how scarred i am from dating ryan and how im TERRIFIED of caring for people...esp the people who do care for me.i dont want to get hurt again and ive built up all these walls that someone will actually have to PROVE how much they care...i dunno? i doubt it will ever happen...tonight me an mom went to see spanglish she cried!! it was a sweeeet movie...now me an ali are watchin you got served..i want some plans for new years but i cant do the hcs thing again...i cant put up with bein talked bout...so uhm i dont know what im gonna do...monday were goin to karens i MIGHT stay with ali i dunno...?? we will see...anyways i know this is sorta short and all but i cant get to INTO my emotions these dayss so thats itt
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

Currently PlayingScream & WhisperBy Edwin Mccainromeo and julietsee related
MeRrRy Christmas....not that im like miss christmas cheer or anything its just that well im tryin haha...i have such a bad headache!! anyways uh i guess ill tell u bout today huh...well last night ryan called and anywaay i told him i would spend the day with him so when i got up an dressed he came an got me an we watched coyote ugly then we had christmas with his fam i really love his family...they make me feel like im welcome...i dunno they r awesome...anyway i talked to them for a long time then i came home...when i got home we were goin to look at lights in canton with my aunt and "odd" cousin...but it wasnt too bad...when i got home i ate then talked to thomas...he doesnt believe im really FED UP with the crap ive been dealing with since august but honestly...im thru...i deserve MUCH more...wesley called while i was at ryans an i couldnt get to my phone fast enough so i sent him a text....but he got mad and i really didnt mean it that way at all...i jus have a real hard time bein sweet when i care about someone and they dont care back...(cough drew you too) anyway for some reason im EXTreEMELY EMOTIONAlllL tonight ...i cried bcus i feel so ALONE and i dont think i will ever be happy....i find something wrong with everyone and everything...especially those people who really do love me...but i guess thats how these things workk ...isnt it awesome how u can have people your totally honest with...brittany and jessica know every bad thing that has happened to me and they still love me so much...girls yall are amazing...seriously....i love yall....

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
i was jus sittin here talkin an thinkin and it occurred to me that drew treats me like shit when im the only one of my girl friends who has ever treated him the way i do...he was hooked on mel an jess both an neither of them cared half as much as i do...WHAT is that?! hm oh well anyways... i downloaded some awesome songs YeAaA!~ AND MATT MIGHT COME SEE ME TOMORROW SUPPER YEAA! anyways im thinkin its time for bed nitee
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Monday, December 20, 2004

Currently PlayingGutterflowerBy Goo Goo Dollssympathysee related
Carrie: Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.

today i talked to wesley and he has been botherin me so bad lately...we finally talked bout it...i know ive hurt him i know that i changed but i never replaced him like he said i did... i know ive made mistakes but IM SORRY u were my best friend how do u expect me NOT to care? i guess i jus felt like the things we said to each other meant something...but maybe i was wrong..Im here fore u always wesley..maybe oneday u will see that u cant block people out of your life...you will only hurt yourself....

anyways...uhm i saw drew for a millisecond like i told u already..and i miss him so bad but im slowly gettin over it...hes slowin not mattering as much...i guess bc lately i have found people that make me feel special and important and dont USE me...im worth alot more than ive been treated the past couple of months and i guess if he doesnt see that and realize that then its time to let go...I guess its jus hard bc ivebecome so attached...

britt stayed with me this weeken i love her so much she is so awesome she got me my rainbow brite shirt for xmas which made me veryvery happy...i cant believ christmas is only in like 5 days!! gah crazy! this christmas is gonna suck but i think im gonna learn alot from it so its ok...

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hey xanga yesterday i laid aroun most of the day then i decided that i would go to the movies so well all got dressed haha and got swatter...aw he paid for all of us to go HOW sweet! anyway the movie sucked so we came home an then went to bed it was fun tho...today i have laid around the house...ryan came an bugged me for a while then drew came over for a millisecond...so i called matt and hes supposed to call me back...mel was a PUNK last night! oh well...uhm me an wesley had a "ChAt"...ill tell u bout that later im jus fill in u in...ill get emotional LaTeER!!
Sunday, December 19, 2004

Currently PlayingSpeakBy Lindsay Lohan, Lindsay LohanOversee related
Over
by Lindsay Lohan
Album
: Speak
I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
As if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
As if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, and I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)
My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
As if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreaming about you
(Tell me that it’s over, over)
Honestly, tell me
Honestly, tell me
Don’t tell me that it’s over
Don’t tell me that it’s over
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hey hey uhm yesterday me an brit an ali all went to eat at stix it was greatt then we went lookin at xmas lights an was gonna go to mels but she didnt answer!! so we came home an laid in the bed hhaha we didnt do much but eat an sleep and such....then we weer gonna go to a party but it wasnt worht it so mel david an swatter came over aw they made my poor deer hump =( sad! haha me an brit made a AWESOMEE webring an shes stayin tonight =) but uhm thats it for now!
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Saturday, December 18, 2004

Currently PlayingDestiny FulfilledBy Destiny's ChildSoldierssee relatedwell hello hello ...last night i prolly should have wrote but i didnt so ill try to explain everything..yesterday mornin i was supposed to wake up an go to drews but i didnt so i woke up at 12:20 an i felt bad most of the day...that night drew was gay so i decided to take matters into my own hands and have some fun...so ryan came an got me an we watched a movie...we had SO much fun gah brought back old times!! his mom is so sweet and she actually LIKES me...omg her car is SO SO fine she got what i wanted haha i told him i was pissed an gonna steal it!! !!! BLACK 2005 MERCEDES CLK!! EXACTLY WHAT I WANT!!! crazzzzzzzzzzzzy! his new car is extremely nice too! aw and hes movinggggggg! sad haha ok so maybe not bc he will be closer but i mean i will be gone so ? anyways i got home at like 1:30 an drew had been freakin out ALLLLL night bc for once i was like F* U! haha and jus ignored him so he was WoRrRiEdDd haha UTOHHHHH! so i called him back then he called me back and we argued....he wanted me to come over at freakin 1:30...and i told him i would continue to be difficult until he stopped bein difficult! i called him at 4 to wake him up so he could hunt but he said he was goin back to sleep so i dunno whatever...me an my BrItTtTtYyYy are goin to eat tonight YEAAAAAAAAA! im pumped!! i love my lil girlllll!! anyways i have alot on my mind now bc i KNOW that ryan treats me like a goddess and always has and his family absolutely loves me but i care so so so so so much about drew and i still want it to work SOOOO bad so yeh im totally confused!!! but w/e i guess im gonna go eat an take a shower ill write laterrrrrr byee
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Currently PlayingHotel PaperBy Michelle BranchGoodbye to Yousee relatedhey xang...i did SO good on my exams today 99 an 92 =) yeh i was pumped but then i came home and had the worst day ive cried more today than like the past 2 years! gah it was so terrible 1st i waited on ali to eat bcus i was tryin to be sweet...but then she called and was so mean to me an like went to eat with the cheerleaders an said i culdnt go so that made me mad and i know thats retarded but ive been sensitive so it hurt then mom yelled at me all day an that hurt then i got britt an shane had a wreck! it was funny/terrible! i know ur like woah how can it be both but he was only goin 45! then we went to the mall and i dunno i kept thinkin an i was tryin SO HARD to be mean an i jus culdnt...what is it about him that makes me care? and want him? it hurts SOOSOOOOO bad! anyways i went to mels' an me her an dave chilled an def didnt study...david read us readers digest an made me cry they were dyin out laughin cus i would cry over anything...so i finally came home an i talked to matt he makes me be in a better mood so i knew he would help..and it did...then i had to work some stuff out ive been real upset cus i feel so unwanted and uncared about and its hurt alot but maybe things will get better i doubt it...anyway i need anap! haha nite =)
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Monday, December 13, 2004

Currently PlayingGet a GripBy AerosmithCRYINsee related
Cryin'
by Aerosmith
Album
: Get A Grip
There was a time
When I was so brokenhearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind, listen
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
Do what you do-down on me
Now there's not even breathin' room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we're makin love
Must be one and the same
It's down on me
Yeah, I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
Do what you do to me
'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
'Till you give your heart away
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me, baby, baby, baby
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery
Do what you do down to, down to, down to, down to
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Your Love is sweet misery

2004-12-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

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2004-12-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

Thank you my precious dear wesley...i love you! =)

Yesterday's Feelings
by Used, The
Album
: In Love and Death

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
The worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like sunspots or raindrops

(Chorus)
Now all those feelings,
Those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
But today I’ve wasted away for today is on my mind
Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how i feel
Cuz Feelings mean nothing
(Chorus)
Yea today is on my mind.
I can't get a worry
Im feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing
(Chorus x3)
I can't get a worry
I’m feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

...

2004-12-11T21:33:00.000-08:00

hey blog las nite was sorta "disappointing" but i didnt care cus i was lookin fwd to today...so i woke up at the crack of dawn after i had had CRAZYYYY dreams... and i was miserable so me an mom decided the act wasnt worth it an i got back in bed and had more crazy dreams then ali an mom woke me up cus i had to go to ali's games...i ended up keepin my lil baby blaire it was fun =) i lovvvvvvvvvvvve her gah she makes me wanna have a lil house an a hubby an a lil blaire!! =) anyway i went shoppin tonight an got some GrEaT nite pants!! uhm then got some IcE CrEaM YuMmmMm and came home an got annoyed haha i just released it all on dale he helps me when im mad..oh well ill be ok bye blog

2004-12-10T12:25:00.000-08:00

MayBe OnE DaY

2004-12-09T20:10:00.001-08:00

hey blog today wasnt the best day ever but it wasnt bad...i cried twice in bible it was so sad... we had our last encouragement day and when i told brandon how much i appreciated his friendship i almost cried. i told him about the 1st time i met him, 8th grade when he made me cry, 9th grade when we were very close, helpin me in 10th grade when my life was a mess, giving me space to find who i am in 11th grade, and loving me for who i have become and not judging but instead understanding and listening to whats going wrong in my life. elizabeth an mandy gave me some sweet comments and i told paige how i valued her friendship...i never would have thought our bible class would have became so close..at the end Mr may told each one of us his thought about us...he made me cry...he told me how strong i have been throughout this year physically and mentally and emotionally and how great my relationship with ali is...how loving i am towards my friends and familyy that i have a kind spirit and will make a wonderful wife and mother he said that one day i will look back at this point in my life and KNOW that GOD gave me endurance and showed me how to have faith in him =)...4th we didnt do much an 5th i spent with mel and dale which was fun...me an mel talked alot bout how different it will be next year..i cant wait...we voted for class color song and flower...my flower got chosen but that was it... me an mel made our own class song...after school me mom an mel went el sombrerro then i took a nap and wrote my paper...tomorrow is the last day this week thank goodness...act is saturday and im jus not stressin this time..it will be ok....anyways i guess thats about it...i love uu

MayBe OnE DaY

2004-12-09T20:10:00.000-08:00

And its JuSt ANoThEr DayY...

2004-12-08T16:11:00.000-08:00

hey blog i havent wrote in a couple of days i have had a cold so ive been sleepin when i get home from school sorry! uhm ok so saturday was my last post...that night when lil mel bel got off work i went to her house an we all watched the secret window which was actually pretty good...then britt an ali call an i go get my lil girl!!! aw i was SoO happy that my baby girl brit came to stay with us! we went an saw *my best friend =)* and then came home...we were SOoO hungry so we fixed us our bagel bites...we stayed up forever talkin then ali went to bed an me an britt talked bout some "life" stuff that we have goin on....the next mornin ali said me an britt looked so cute cus our heads were like right next to each other AwW haha anyways we laid aroun for forever an finally got dressed to go to the mall even tho we were poor! haha i got a headache while we were there so we came back..uhm sunday nite pumpkin stopped bein mean so we talked...monday sucked but all mondays suck..omg i broke my phoneeee!! it was horrible! it is cracked to pieces... so jess brought me a new one =( anyways uhm tuesday was our weddin AwWwW =) cute i was a cute old woman =) and i got some "stuff" worked out that had been being said about me...i handled it in a NICE manner even tho i wanted to yell..anyways uhm then i had to go to the dr. =( aw laguna beach was saddddd =( me an mel are so LC an LO haha i see it...anyways today was ok it was long an i was stuffy haha mel used to call me stuffy...anyways uhm yehhh i thought i was gonna fail math then i did it an i thought oh i did good then..i ended up makin a 75 YUCKKKKKK but it will be OK....uhmm today ive been arguing about CoMpRoMiSe...and sleepin lots...i wanna see national treasure this weekend and i really want closer to open here in Jackson so i can see it.,..but i donno we will see...christmas is only 17 days away and i have a feeling its not gonna be too great this year =/ alot has happened this year that well hasnt necessarily been GOoD and i dont think that it will be an exception..i jus want the year to be over...to start fresh...actually...i jus want it to be august but u dont always get what u want

In a relationship, when does the art of compromise become compromising? Carrie-s&c

2004-12-04T13:35:00.000-08:00

this is what i thought about last night...ive been strugglin with that for a while but i guess i jus finally got to the defining moment. I like him so much and i want him to see that and to want me the way i want him and care the way i do but its jus not fair to myself to ride this rollercoaster anymore. so i guess we can say i "got off the ride" last night... ive been tryin to be "hard" for a while now and i always give in. but i dont see how it is fair for him to expect me to drive 160 miles to stay with him when he cant drive 15 to see me. I am worth more than this. i know you are supposed to always see the one u want when ever they want u to but if they dont return the favor is it worth it?

i guess thats enough of that...uhm las nite me an mel an david an evan all went to margarita's and then to a party it was fun i got to know evan more...mel an david try to be my lil date finder haha im like guys really im ok! anyway mels enemy was there im sorry babyy doll we found a GrEaT group to go to cancun with so we r SOOO excited weve been tryin to get a group together but we were kinda scared that if it was all girls we wouldnt have anyone to protect us but we do now so we r excited...and the best thing is its not like anyone im datin or anything like that so i know that i can have fun they will jus make sure im careful bc they care about me...uhm today i talked to my lil britty shes been goin thru some stuff that only ME an MEL could understand so i told her u know that ive been there and i know how it feels and that im here that i wish i could say in 2 years it will be better but it will only get worse baby so jus dont worry about it...she is my lil sis haha i love her soo soo much...i think im bout to nap tho bcus i gotta get mel from work aroun 8 an then were gonna watch some movies

2004-12-04T13:30:00.000-08:00

Iris
by Goo Goo Dolls
Album
: Dizzy Up The Girl

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

All the Answers lie with in Sex and the City =)

2004-12-02T15:25:00.000-08:00

Carrie: Damn! Why is that girl still bothering me?
Samantha: Honey, you have to let it go. If I worried what every bitch in New York was saying about me, I'd never leave the house

gah i love that show! so awesomeeeeee!

Carrie: It's really hard to walk in a single woman's shoes -- that's why you sometimes need really special shoes!

anyways im sick =( mel and david have it too ear ache tummy ache head ache haah jus a whole lot of ACHE so anyways uhm i didnt go to the dr for my knee it still hurts tho anywayss tomorro i dont have school thank goodness not too positive what im gonna do...thought i culd see prince charming but he wont be home haha so i guess ill lay around...me an lauren planned the spring camping trip..were pretty excited about it! haha kinda funny we never like each other bc of "issues" and now everything is cool me an mel an britty might hang out this weeken i kinda hope so i love that girl! but uhmmm i guess thats all for now tah tah!

All i want is Snow, U, and a Mercedes

2004-11-30T14:26:00.000-08:00

haha hey blog how corny is that...cant believe i actually said it there is more of a story to it but w/e...anyways haha it just might snow..well they said (a few snow flurries but still) so theres one thing...ha him and the mercedes welllllllllll thats another story....anyway my medicine makes me sick to my stomach YUK! i might be livin with mel for a lil while how AWESOME would that be! uhm today hasnt been very exciting...i had planned and wanted to go see drew thursday but i wont be able to i have a dr's apt that afternoon for my knee and im terrified bc if its a torn ACL or menicus then ill have to have surgery so yeh thats sorta a big deal...im so ready to leave this stupid town...me an melissa talked alot about that yesterday...but i guess thats all for now =/...

WHAT IS A SLUT?

2004-11-27T23:44:00.000-08:00

ok so i wrote a entire "essay" about this issue but good old blogger lost it so here goes my 2nd try.... i have heard this one word flying around everywhere and my question is more of why?....from what i got out of all my research is that Rumors are better than the truth, Noone wants to here the real story, and the only ones who hear, believe, and care about the truth truly are the only ones that matter. I guess when its all said and done it's much better to be happy with the person that you are than to worry bout what others say about you. Women who are open and confident about their life experience usually are labeled these things. The down right truth of the matter is MOST girls who label women of this status a slut have done the same things, they are just not as secure about it. There are porn stars who have more class, self esteem, and self worth than the trashy girls who give out the "nickname" slut. I love myself and I love my friends. The fact that I'm not at the position in my life to have a serious relationship does not make me a bad person. Your mistakes in life and in love make you who you are. They are what shapes you for true real heartfelt love. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Reply to: anon-26820858@craigslist.orgDate: Fri Mar 19 02:55:50 2004I'm speaking as a slut. So before someone goes, "Hey, you're a slut!" Um, yeah, I know. Get over it. Anyway, I'd like to put an end to some incorrect rumors. Myth: Sluts have no respect for themselves. Fact: I have plenty of respect for myself. I don't like being tied down to one guy for too long. I enjoy my freedom. I'm sure this will change at some point. My biological clock will start ticking, and I'll start thinking more about the future. At some point, I will start thinking more seriously about wanting to spend my life with someone. But for now, I'm young and enjoying myself. And I'd have to say that I have a lot more respect for myself than the girls who stay chaste simply because they're afraid of being labeled by men. I have enough respect for myself to accept and embrace my needs. Myth: A slut will fuck anyone. Especially you. Fact: I can get just about any guy I want. That means that I can and do have high standards. If I fucked every guy who wanted me, I'd have no time for work, school, eating, or sleep. Even if I had sex 24 hours a day, seven days a week, I still wouldn't be able to fulfill all the guys who want me. So, as you can see, I won't fuck you just because you have a penis. My standards are too high for that. Myth: Anyone who doesn't want to be a woman from the 50's who gets off doing laundry and making dinner and being a slave for her big strong husband hates men and is a lesbian. Fact: Obviously I don't hate men. The last time I checked, slavery was abolished in 1865 with the 13th Amendment. While many women are content to spend their lives cooking and cleaning, I'm not. That doesn't mean that I don't respect these women for being able to live in their lifestyle, and I certainly don't think less of them for it, it's not the lifestyle I would choose for myself, or one I could tolerate. And I will NEVER get myself into a relationship where the man is in charge and I'm just along for the ride. Nor will I get myself into a relationship where my man has no balls and smiles meekly at everything I say. When I find the man who I can settle down with, we will have an equal relationship. I don't want a tyrant or a push-over. I want a man. Myth: Any woman who wants a man to treat her like a woman instead of like shit is a needy bitch who is just after the man's money. Fact: How would you feel if your date showed up with dirty, baggy clothes on, smelled from not having showered for too long, ate with her hands, and talked about herself the entire night? You probably wouldn't want to go on a second date. We put in effort to look our best on dates. We put in effort to make the guy feel special. In return, we expect to be treated decently. Trust me, if you act like a gentleman, your chance of getting that second date increases exponentially. It's not that we're needy, it's just that we like to feel appreciated, just like everyone else. Myth: Women are all whores, men are all bastards. Fact: There are plenty of non-whores out there for you non-bastards. Myth: No man will ever want a serious relationship with me or any other slut. Fact: I have been in serious relationships before. What I realized was that I wasn't ready for that kind of commitment. There are men now who want a relationship with me, but I'm honest with them and tell them that a serious commitment is not what I want at this time in my life. .

YOU ARE YOU AND I AM ME

2004-11-27T19:52:00.000-08:00

i saw someone today that i havent seen in a longgggg time...and old friend that ive always thought was wonderful an beautiful...and when i saw her i was like wow u know we are alot more alike than i could have ever dreamed...and no matter what went on in her hectic crazy life she was happy and she never stopped being herself...no matter what was ever said about her...and well thats how i hope to be...las night we shopped for forever then i came home an got drug to some party aw i made lil friends tho hha they cracked me up it was so funny an they were sweet an so yeh it was fun then we went an saw evan an i stole his shirt gah he smells so good! then we went back an i talked to drew cus i was llonely then it was bed time...but ill give some more "comments" laterr byee

HaPpPy HaPpPy TuRkEy DaY

2004-11-25T20:15:00.001-08:00

well hello there uhm yesterday i skipped work then went an got my hair cut...after that me an mel went to take my jeans back an we got godiva YuMMMMM! then i took her to davo's and i came to watch the bachelor!!! aw i was SoOo happy mary won! she likes him! it was sooooo sweet =( haha me an thomas argued bout me never gettin married i said dierks was my only hope haha speakin of dierks im listenin to him =) he makes me happppppy me an drew still havent spent time together but we did plan a lil "togetherness" trip after exams...uhm afterwards i watched 100 women...gah i love that movie it is so so so so so sweet...i stayed up jus so i could watch it!then it was def bed time...this mornin mel called an woke me up.. i was supposed to go to thanksgivin with her fam....so i got up an ate with my fam an then took a shower an got dressed...by the time i got there they were done eatin so i went up stairs an we all watch lord of the rings til dave went to sleep then we watched national security til i came home...haha our fav movie is on ferris buellers day off.....haha its GREATT i think our parents shouldnt have let us watch it when we were lil tho! =) gah i love it is AWESOME! i called an told her to GET HOME since it was on! uhm shes makin a confetti cake YEAH! anywaysss i guess im supposed to work tomorro...im not sure...i dont want to....i might jus not,...i HAVE got to go shoppin but i dunno we will just see....saturday is the hunting dayyyyy!~ hopefully tomorro night will be a tad more exciting....i reallllly need to go to the tannin bed!!!!!! but oh well ill b ok...my lil girl britt is hOmME!
~ 30 days til christmasss!~ 4 months til no more school~8 months til i leave~and 9 months til my bday~

2004-11-23T20:49:00.000-08:00

this song is absolutely awesome i know i made some mistakes along the way but i finally found *U* ahha and ur great u make me happy in this absolutely unstable life that im living in right now and i know that i can do what i want bc u arent "mine" but u matter so much and i dont want to lose u... ahah anyways im sappy what can i say...uhm im talkin to my lil tommy right now haha hes takin me huntin after thanksgivin!!~ =) hes gonna teach me how to shoot im pumped... me an mel might go to the "big game" but i havent decided if i wanna deal with all that drama...uhm yeh but work wasnt too bad today i didnt do much haha an i worked for a whilllle aw i got my pics back...im def excited bout that one!! i watched raisin helen tonight it was sooooooooooooo good haha me an mom both cried!! but uhm im bout to call mel bel so ill write laterrr byebye

2004-11-23T20:46:00.000-08:00

i've never done anything that would ever bring a tear to your eye
i've never crossed the line or needed an alibi to cover up a lie
but darlin i'll admit they're been times when i could have
the thing that kept me strong is the one that is always on my mind
when i think bout cheatin
i just think bout you leavin
and how my would would fall to pieces if i tossed your love away
even when i'm tempted by some stranger
oh there's never any danger
i just think bout you leavin
when i think bout cheatin
there was a time in abilene when he said all the things i wanted to hear
it was hard to turn him down
between the champagne and the sound of whispers in my ear
but it just took one two-step with someone and i was missing you
he never had a chance
cause i broke up the dance
before the song was through
when i think bout cheatin
i just think bout you leavin
and how my would would fall to pieces if i tossed your love away
even when i'm tempted by some stranger
oh there's never any danger
i just think bout you leavin
when i think bout cheatin

2004-11-21T21:00:00.000-08:00

hey bloggg uhm the weekend has been pretty boring...i cant really think of what i even did....i dont think anything tho...ahhahahaha sorry i just saw the FUNNIEST thing ever....ok so anyways uhm yeh saturday when i got up an got dressed me an mom went to the mall i got some jeans and my nails done then we went out to eat an then to the bryam tricounty pageant...today wasnt too exciting...but uhm yeh im bored and in bed so i GUESS thats about it...

2004-11-21T08:36:00.000-08:00

How Far
by Martina Mcbride
Album
: Martina

There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh, never come back
There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh, when's it gonna end
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
Yeah I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
How far
Ooohhhh

to you: i give up, i cant keep trying. why cant you see how much i care, how much i want to be there for you? i hope you realize that i matter....

2004-11-19T20:16:00.000-08:00

why do women feel that holding on to something that will never work is unavoidable? what is it that makes our hearts so breakable?

have you ever just wanted to say " I give up, you win, I cant do this anymore" im at that very point but for some reason i keep sayin it will be ok just give it time...

but anyways thats just some emotions im dealing with...uhm today wasnt too terribly bad...i had work....i did get paid today tho thats a plus...im sorta exhausted and i need to wash my face so i guess ill just leave it at that

2004-11-15T20:55:00.000-08:00

Congratulations! You are Gabrielle Solis, the
ex-model with everything she's every wanted a
rich husband, a big house and John, the
17-year-old gardener.

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A:

Your Beauty lies
in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than
you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and
sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your
reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of
life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are
a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might
seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem
you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are
going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song:
Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone:
Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Sign: Virgo Planet:
Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color:
Silver

Quote: "A
stranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."

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SWEET TEEN!!! Yes you are a teenager mmmm from 13
- 19 quite a little rebel haha just kidding...
You think as a teenager, you see everything
quite simple, soon you will realize it is not
that simple. In my opinion you look at things
in a very beautiful way. =)

. What is you inner age?
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You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)

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everything always balances out

2004-11-15T14:35:00.000-08:00

or well at least thats what wesley tells me...i had wrote this long long long blog last night about EVERYTHING but it didnt save it =( oh well u didnt miss much,....me and britty talked it was great i love her Oh SoO MuCh!~ but uhm today wasnt bad...ahha me an don an mel had a heart 2 heart bout my "boy problems" he said i have GOT to stop likin the "mama's boys" haha an said i was one of those girls that has to have everything...and i was like NO i just have found what makes me happy yet...I DONT DATE SOMEONE UNLESS IM HAPPY....it was funny...then he told me to BE CAREFUL in oxford cus those boys are whiney haha and he said just dont date it was pretty funny but uhm yeh nothin special today nothin happened...so i guesssss ill go byeeeeeeee =-)

my week keeps gettin better...HA yeh rite

2004-11-09T18:41:00.000-08:00

ok so i guess you know about the wreck...my neck is KILLING me!!i woke up this mornin an got dressed an called to check on melly she was ok so i went to school i kept tryin to see my act score but that was a lost cause...alot is goin on at home...=( but it will b ok...gah if i have to explain friday nite ONE more time! its terrible! me an mom have become ALOT closer....uhm drews been punky this week but w/e...chris this guy i met friday is supposed to take me out to eat soon he is sweet not someone i would ever date tho haha i like jerks...but anyways i guess thats it im turnin in early tonight im in pain!

LIFE IS TOO SHORT...

2004-11-07T19:50:00.000-08:00

this title comes from a episode of sex and the city...the dominoes....gah it was soooo good...one of my fav episodes...life IS too short to cry over love that MAY or MAY NOT be and life is too short to not allow some one to LOVE you....HOLD HIS HAND =)....a little commitment comment....anyways this weeken was uhm well rather wild...friday was kinda i guess a milestone...that mornin was our last senior caravan...and that afternoon the last peprally...me an mel went to eat lunch and i saw wesley who was hateful....i talked to him while i waited on ali and told him JUST how much he hurt me...then that nite i went to the game for a bit...then went out with mel...i met this AMAZING guy who any other day i would have just drooled over..but all i could think of was drew...then we went home...on the way home we had a real bad wreck and were lucky to be ok...i was cryin when i got home an i called wesley...i dont know why i had to call him but i just did...he helped me calm down and laugh...drew wasnt too caring about all of it which hurt my feelings...yesterday i was tremendously sore an i didnt do much...that nite i went to thomas's and i was QUITE annoyed just bcus i get harrassed about the choices i make and those very samepeople do what i do an nothing is said...its ridiculous...so i left an saw drew then came home and went to bed...today ive been in worse pain and i just can not make myself study...im gonna go to bed now tho cus im hurtin...have a good nite...=)

hey blog

2004-11-02T20:08:00.000-08:00

1st day back to school since ive been in the hospital..it wasnt awful but it certainly wasnt great...i ordered my senior pics today so yeh that made the day a lil bit better an i got to vote so i guess that was exciting...after that i had to go to the 2005 class of ylj lil ceremony....and i had to say a speech about the class of 2004 and my experiences...i was scared to death but i made it out ok...i miss drew =( haha ok so dont feel sorry for me or anything ill be OK i jus miss the boy...haha i am ready to party it up at thomas's saturday tho =) uhmm lets see news..........yeh id say thats about it...i have alot of make up work...oh oh haha for bible me an brandon are " roommates" i found that humorous considerin we r the 2 laziest and unorganized in the class... hm well yeh thats it ill write laterr

hey blog

2004-10-31T11:48:00.000-08:00

so i havent written in a week...well ive been in the hospital....yeh crazy huh....it sucked real bad but im alot better now...still a lil sick but ill be ok...the week was interesting to say the least....i got some beautiful flowers from mrs briges haha my medicine made me finally say what i thought to drew which actually ended up helping...i had some stupid stuff said while i was away from school but thats not important...me an mel talked everyday while i laid in bed bored out of my mind!....last night was supposed to be this awesome time and i couldnt do anything bcusi was sick...so i went to get ali from her lil party an hung out with 2 sweet lil 9th graders...but anyway i talked to brandon on my way home im glad were gettin closer...it means alot actually..anyways i guess thats about it byee =)

well hellooo

2004-10-24T16:59:00.000-07:00

ok so im gonna keep this one short uhm today has been fun i got up an took a shower thomas came over an spent time with the fam haha it was fun then we all went an played tennis we kicked butt then it was time to go home so i laid in my bed =) uhm some interestin "comments" were made but they were really sweet so i didnt mind...me an dale came up with our get rich quick plan haha its AWESOME and i talked to tiff earlier =) hm i guess thats about it so yeh im goin home an gettin in my bed...sex and the city is on and so is the big game =) haha luv u lotsss =)

HELLLLLLO again!~

2004-10-23T21:25:00.000-07:00

hey blogger longg time huh? well uhm since i last wrote its been kinda up and down....i did bad for the 9 weeks but im not stressin im gonna be ok...after that it was fall break so i went and saw drew in starkville and i had SO much fun...spendin time with him is great...then friday i came home an i was EXHAUSTED so i slept that whole nite...saturday was chase's bday so me mel and ashley yes i know...INTERESTING group well we all went to the movies to see team america which by the way was freakin HILLARIOUS! but anyways then we went to chase's we had soooo much fun...haha started some drama which is always fun....its just GREAT to finally NOT CARE bout wut gets started about u...so yeh monday me an tommy boy played tennis and then tuesday me an mel had fun with our "rumors" haha its funny....urh then i found out some more gay crap...but w/e im SO OVER IT...i really care but its not worth letting it get the best of me...this week has been interesting...it didnt start off too good but its finished pretty good...i want to see drew but hm doubt that one...he's been gay recently bcus of someones dumb comments...which was retard in itself but w/e ahah as "someone" would say w/e w/e w/e ahha =) but anyways i totally dont understand whats goin on with all of that...just to get the story straight we rnt dating...although i really do care about him...me an mel aremuch better which is good...we've been plannin senior trip/spring break/college....were gonna have a good time...end it right haha but i guess thats about it im gonna try and get some sleep...i had act today and i woke up super early...i'll try to write more often...PROMISE =)

=)

2004-10-03T18:54:00.001-07:00

hey blog the past month it seems ive been totally upset and im sorry that ive taken my anger an saddness out in you...uhm this week started off terrible i had laryngitis and alot went on at school...wednesday we started overall an we id good so i was happy...thursday was my bday it was actually pretty good..i got a tad bit upset at some "people" but its cool now...friday was fun me an tiff hung out again which is always great...shes my girl! haha we saw first daughter an i was soooooo goood i wanted to cry!! uhm for my bday i got a BEUTIFUL ANTIQUE DIAMOND RING its amazing...i was so excited and so happy about it...tiff got me an adorable bag with akitty and crown on it thats pink =) hahhah its just a gift bag but i LOVEEEE it..andthen RyAn CaBrErRa!! which is a totally AWESOME cd~!~ thomas gave me an adorable card and sticker! =) ahha it says ITS MY BIRTHDAY WANNA SPANK ME?? it makes me VeRrRy Happy =) cory gave me a card too ali an mom got me a cuteeee purse =) buti guess the big present was the ring...uhm so anyways saturday mean tiff werelate haha we bout ran outta gas!! but we got there we KICKED BUTT and won overall which was sad but fun...me an jenn both made allstar so that game is saturday....awww friday i fixed brannons make up haha he is such a cute lil girl! no really i jus did eyeliner an mascara and it made himlook hott or well me an mel thought so anyways! im so glad its october tho...alot of stress will be GONE! and i can start oin good in school again! yeaaaa! haha i def need to....ive been doin AWFUL...today i slept for a while then me an mom went to eat an to the mall...haha i got an awesome night gown from vikki secrets its royal blue and black and im so gonna wear it as a shirt...an then we bought ali some panties an i got a pretty blue shirt for my outdoor pics...an then i came home to watch the race which by the way was AWESOME drew got to go NO FAIR! haha im such a boy! not many girls actually watch nascar...haha o well i like it anyways im gone byeeeeeee

2004-09-28T14:48:00.000-07:00

there comes a time in your life when u have to stop trying to make those around you happy and start pleasing yourself....this is where i am right now....the past year of my life has been this complete wide awake nightmare and while you may not have been able to tell...i have been in a total depressed state....i wish i could say its all bout boys or grades...but it goes so much deeper than that...and while i made it aware to my bible class recently just how UPSET i am they all said the same thing..i seem so happy an i dont let things get me down...they said it as if it was a character trait...a good thing to have...which in some sense it is...but i keep things so deep down that they destroy me..i act as if everything is ok until one day im faced with the fact that it isnt ok and it never will be....so i run away...and i wish i could say its different but thats just how i am...im so freakin tired of that damn school....i really wish it would burn but not only the schooll its self...its hypocritical gold digging lying and scamming administration as well....then there are the issues with my dad which well we will neevr ever be the same again....my grades...yes they suck and i wish i could say i care but I DONT...there is "the boy" who of coarse i like o so much but it doesnt matter what i want bc i have come to the relazation the past year that im not gonna get what i want so why try...im sorry this blog has been so depressing but if i didnt get it off my chest i was gonna scream....anyway maybe itll get better...i seriously doubt it tho...

I GUESS SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE

2004-09-20T20:30:00.000-07:00

ford just said this lovely comment to me and well instead of it having the meaning we were using lets jus let it be general....

anyways today really sucked...ali is goin through alot of changes tryin to know who she is and where HER place is...and i know its tough and that i went through it but she is really bein hateful an i feel like were not as close which really really hurts me...i love her so much and she has treated me so badly but i guess it will get better....alot of crazy stuff has happened lately but nothin really worth mentionin...homecomin was awesome we had soooo much fun at the dance...that week was a terrible week tho...uhmmm we won south state this weekend which was AWESOME>>>RUN RULED EVERYONE! and state is this week...i get to see my babydoll drew!~ haha i was goin to spend the nite with him saturday nite but we got home at 3 an i was exhausted so i jus went to sleep an woke him up the next day...school is stressin me out so terribly bad but some good news i made a 98 on bio yeahhhhh gooo steffy!~ =) uhmmmm but i guess thats about all i can say...my bday is in 10 days but im not expecting too much...i wish i could tho...i mean its the 1st time my bday is important to me....im goin to be 18! i duno mayb ill be suprised =/

Its BeEn A BaDdD dAy! =(

2004-09-08T13:28:00.001-07:00

Tangled
by Maroon 5

I'm full of regret
For all the things that I have done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face around here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear
Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you ought to know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
You're just an innocent
A helpless victim of a spiders web
And I'm an insect
Going after anything that I can get
So you better turn your head and run
and don't look back
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you ought to know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh, shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up
You better turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you ought to know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh, shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up
(tangled!)
[And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh, shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up]

ive apologized so many times to that one person that those lyrics are and it never seems to matter i just hurt them again so once again IM SORRY!

ok so today has been a disaster and i dont even know why....1st off last night i COULD NOT sleep i tossed and turned and tossed and turned so when ashley called at 7 i was like GO AWAY! an i prayed that noone would wake up but of coarse they did...then i took a shower...i looked terrible and i knew it but who really cares i thought...so i went to school...u know nothin terribly bad went wrong but i was in SUCH a bad mood...ok then i got even more ridiculously pissed off over something that "WASNT MY BUSINESS" but i cant help but make it my business....o and i got yelled at by a "friend" so i was like hm ok well thanks...i finally found thomas an i was like this day is a disaster he told me i would be ok but im not....so i go to bible an mr may TRIES to help...then we like make a list of qualities u look for in a guy...and as we were doing it i started thinkin an i was like u know every guy i have "liked" even tho most of the time i really DONT bcus i get over them way way to easily...but back to the point i realize that every one of them couldnt even make that list.... i mean they have the # 10 ahha attraction but past that they have nothing...and why am i "attracted" to someone that cant even respect me? so yeh im THROUGH with them...uRhH someone else has me MAJORLY annoyed too but yeh we wont talk about that....thanks lizzi for the note...i know u love me i was just playin....and love u too...i wish that we were closer...and that those years that i was up all those guys butts that you would have said something to me about it....but i love u girl....we definitely need to hang out sometime soon!

Its BeEn A BaDdD dAy! =(

2004-09-08T13:28:00.000-07:00

Hey Again

2004-09-03T23:11:00.000-07:00

well wow blog has changed since last time...and u know i have not written in like ages...and well ALOT has changed...ALOT....I made a total connection with someone an well i actually like them ALOT and he knows that..but obviously it doesnt matter which kinda SUCKS but its ok...i dunno i just get extremely confused by him an im at that POINT where i want to give up...cus well we all know i give up easily...ive kinda done everything in my power this week to piss him off considerin he has pissed me off...but ive been extremely good so maybe he will figure out he can TRUST me! anyway on to new subject hopefully the BOY thing will get better =( ok uhm school well we all know how majorly bummed ive been about uniforms over the sumer but they r really easy an cute an i well i sorta like em! haha uhm scholarship stuffs kinda freakin me out but it will all work out =/....aw jenn jenn might come to ole miss!!!!! im workin on her tryin to get her to! uhm but back to school...well i like all my teachers an classes except ENGLISH! no comment....ive had alot of kidney problems an so ive missed a lil school...and its made softball kill me...softball hm well it hasnt gone to great..i mean were good when we try but were all just SO sick of it...u know! tiff tiff is hurt =( uhmmm....so yeh now im the pitcher kinda oddddd huh urh i really had a bad day today so im really sorry that the blog is so RANDOM....but i jus was tryin to update you...

Losing Grip
by Avril Lavigne

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone
You, You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick
you placed beside you
to take somebody's place?
When you turn around
can you recognize my face?
You used to love me
you used to hug me
but that wasn't the case
everything wasn't okay

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
when I was scared
I was so alone
You! You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
and I'm in this thing alone

Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
crying out loud
I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
open up wide

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
If you don't care
then I don't care
we're not going anywhere

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
if you don't care
then I don't care
we're not going anywhere

2004-08-11T18:10:00.000-07:00

Its been, three days
You come around here like you know me
Your stuff at my place,
Next thing you know you'll be using my toothpaste
Step off, sit down
Get ready, let me tell you whose the boss now
Stay here, get out
Everytime I turn around you're in my face
Dont care where you think you've been
And how you're getting over.
If you think you got me found just wait it gets much colder
Here I am,
As perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave,
You'll see,
Love me for me
Shut up, Come back
No, I didn't really mean to say that.
I'm mixed up, so what
Yeah you want me so you're messed up too
I love you, I hate you
If you only knew what I've been through
My head is spinnin but
My heart is in the right place
Sometimes it has to have itself a little earthquake
Here I am,
As perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave,
You'll see,
Love me for me
I've been waiting all my life to finally find you,
Just so I can push you away.
And when you're crawling over broken glass to get to me
Thats when I'll let you stay
uh, Here I am,
As perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see,
Love me for me
whoa...
Here I am,
As perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave,
You'll see,
Love me for me

2004-08-11T18:09:00.000-07:00

she knows every move that a man could make
she knows every trick in the book
she knows how to give
she knows how to take
cuz so many times shes been taken a fool
by those
Chorus:
alibis and lyin eyes and all the best lines
lord knows shes heard them all
shes been cheated on and pushed around and left alone
lord knows what ive put her through
and boy you can bet if a move can be made
she knows how to make one on you
she once thought that love wasnt just a game
her feelings once came from the heart
one day i gave her a wedding ring
in one night i tore all those feelings apart
with my
Chorus:
alibis and lyin eyes and all the best lines
lord knows shes heard them all
shes been cheated on and pushed around and left alone
lord knows what ive put her through
and boy you can bet if a move can be made
she knows how to make
her own
alibis and lyin eyes and all the best lines
lord knows shes heard them all
shes been cheated on and pushed around and left alone
lord knows what ive put her through
and boy you can bet if a move can be made
she knows how to make one on you

My LiTtLe SuMmEr TrIp WiTh ThE BoYz

2004-08-02T14:17:00.000-07:00

well i went to neshoba county fair with the boys...but it was a while back an my computer is actin up so i had to wait til i got on this one to write about it....see i had planned on going but then matt decided not to go some i thought hm maybe i shouldnt...matthew talked me into it tho an after hours of waitin on me...IM SORRY HONEY! we left...the way there we played games an i tried to figure out the song names haha cus im TERRRRIBLE at it an he likes to make fun of me about it...when we got there we went inside an watched eurotrip....it was good haha i played with his hair so that made him happy...haha there was a girl in the movie that reminded me alot of me...she was like best friends with the guys an they all would talk bout how hott the girls were an say comments like i wish there were some girls an stuff like that an she would be like UH IM A GIRL!! but they would jus ignore her....i feel like that most the time...haha im jus one of the guys when it comes to how they feel about me! but o wel anyways trey an drew went down to the horse races...then we walked down there i dont member why but we did...after that we came back aha the boys had put the chairs out for dierks bentley wow i LOVE HIM! O YEHHHHH me an matthew had to take mrs connie an gregs chairs....thats why we walked down there! haha anyways then we came back an we started playin some games....mrs connie came an she played too haha that was NUTS! but hey its cool....i had to pee soooooo bad an they were workin on the freakin toilet so me an trey went ahead an walked down there so i could go to the bathroom an we could get to the concert...the concert was GREAT! im gonna put one of his songs on here later....this one is funy...but there was this one really good sweet one we all loved it...cept me an matthew heard somethin bout a wash cloth an were like what! so afterwards me an matthew started walkin we saw a bunch of people...an i talked to erin who was actually pretty nice....hm once we got back to the camper we attempted to watch starksy an hutch but that didnt happen...the next mornin we watched it an then we went to eat at silver star...afterwards we played games with tthese girls they were sweet an then we went to craig morgan an then me an drew danced =) i was mad at matthew...long story haha an i beat him up an told him i hated him...me an drew had like this long talk...kinda changed things...then thursday we went to eat at golden moon an came home..me an matthew talked alot on the way home...then i took the best shower of my LIFE haha but that was all i guess....it was tons of fun!

How Am I Doin'
by Dierks Bentley

It's strange to hear your voice
I did not expect for you to call
You wonder how I'm doin
How I'm holdin up
Since you did me wrong
(chorus)
Well how am I doin' since you did what you done to me?
I can't lie I sometimes cry when I think of how it used to be
I keep my friends with me, I stay busy and I don't get much sleep
Baby, that's how I'm doin since you did what you done to me
Well now wait one minute, I
Failed to mention
Those tears I cried, are tears of joy
Cause' it was no fun there
Under your thumb and
Now that we're done I'm
Gettin' right every night
With every single ever-lovin' girl in sight, so
(chorus)
Well when all my friends heard what a
You know what you were they
Took me out on the town
But then I heard our song and
I dance along but
It felt all wrong cause'
She was sweet, she let me lead
She never took her ever-lovin' eyes off me so
(chorus)
Well I don't know what you were thinkin'
Runnin' round on me
Now you say you're sorry
Well honey I agree...so
How are you doin' since you did
What you done to me
Girl don't lie you know you cry
Cause' you know how good it used to be
Yeah, tell me does the thought of
Losin' my true love make it hard to sleep, baby
How are you doin' since you did
What you done to me
Yeah how are you doin', now that you know
How I'm doin since you did
What you done to me

ok so friday i woke up brite an early! mom had slept with me the nite b4 an so she woke me up cus there was a lil kitty in the garage....by the way 3 baby kittens...custard yumyum an tiger were born on ali's bday...but anywaysss so i got him out an i tried to go back to sleep but i couldnt....mom said well go get ali an yall get dressed while i go to work an ill meet u at 10 to get yalls uniforms...YUCK! so i came an got ali she was in a BADDDDD mood! then i showed her the kittens an we got dressed...we met mom an it took us FOREVER in that dang place! ali threw a fit bout them but i didnt mind it that bad haha they actually looked kinda cute...so we were all supposed to go out to eat but stupid rebas birthday was that day an mom had to eat with her office...so me an ali went an ate on our own..we met back up with mom an went to the dress store....uh WOW yeh...anyways were sellin ali's dress an all her pageant stuff its too little...an were gonna make alot off of it so she can buy some new stuff! thennn we took mommy to her car an we went to cingular an to dogwood to look around...we found me an adorable backpack...got blaire some sunglasses...an got us some ribbons...when mom came home from work we went to walmart to buy more ribbon then to sallys so we could die alis hair then we went to nanas to swim...judy came home yea! an she went swimmin haha then we all went to an played til 1 haha ... saturday i slept til like 2!! but then i got up an me an mom drove to meridian! we saw jr miss my beautiful anna didnt get top 10 but i know she deserved it =) hahaha talked to some one EXTREMELY RANDOM that nite ....uhm sunday we got up to see my lil boy caden...he wears me out but hes sooooooo much fun!!!jes adorable...we fought over who is the pimp...i won =)...after that we went to eat an then came home....an BACK to my nanas hm well guess thats all...today we went to bonsai with mommy for lunch then to the mall an then came home an laid out...an im still over here so anyyyyyyways hope u enjoyed the update!!! =)

TO YOU

2004-07-29T20:37:00.000-07:00

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you never "care".
I hate the way you "mess" with my car.
I hate it when you give a "mean" stare.
I hate the way you try to change
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick --
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're "ALWAYS" right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And I hate when you don't call.
But mostly I hate the way
I don't hate you -- Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at ALL.
-10 things bout u...(edited by me)

jess im sure u know who that goes out to... U make me SOOO mad...i love U so much an U dont see that! it makes me hate U and i cant stand to hate U! it sucks!

=)

2004-07-26T12:53:00.000-07:00

ISNT IT TERRIFIC? u know when u can talk to someone for like 5 hours with out any dullness...without awkward silence...without bein self consumed an talkin about datin or "hookin up"...or living in the past...but insted u make this like CONNECTION with someone and its like WOW this kid really understands...and they like actually LIKE the stuff i like...its weird!~then u remember..it would NEVER work...so u go to sleep...bc well in dreams EVERYTHING works =)

i FINALLY talked to my dear doll matthew! i miss him soooooo much! good greif! hes great...we havent talked much lately...ive been sorta mad at him an hes made me feel "unimportant" but we talked bout all of it an its cool now...i met some guy in fl that reminded me of matthew SO SO SO much an i told matthew bout it haha my mean ms matthew was better =) but uhm im so tired! so i think i might take a nap niteynite =)

WAITING FOR YOU IS LIKE WAITING FOR RAIN TO END THE DROUGHT>>>ITS USELESS

2004-07-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

hey blogg today has been GREAT ...REALLY...i didnt wake up til like 1:30...had some strange but good dreams...then went an got my al cat...we got dressed an went shoppin and had bonding time...we went to marble slab...an then we went to nana's....i love my nana soooo much! i had so much fun! we watch 100 greatest love songs an then went an got pizza then we let ali sing for us then we watched elvis live...i talked to matt...he might take off so we can go to neshoba YEA! i have talked to JD all freakin nite long...its been so much fun...he's so funny an sweet...haha he talks to ali too which means ALOT to me...but what i was whinin about the other nite was that that movie was so sweet an its SO NOT FAIR that i cant find someone for me...and when i find someone...there is always a problem...i just wish i could find someone who loves me for me..some one who really GETS me..and someone that i feel the same for...ahah movies like the notebook an cinderella story make me miss having someone...=( i jus dont know what makes me unlovable...

=(

2004-07-23T23:13:00.000-07:00

blogggg im so miserable right now...it sucks! this week hasnt been the best but o well its all most over RIGHT?? ok so i guess ill tell u bout the past few days then finish my whining...well me an the parents argued i think u gathered that from the las blog rite? well i left and stayed with nana...i lvoe her SOOOOO much she is the BEST grandmother ever haha shes awesome i talked to some friends that nite an whether they know it or not they helped jus cus they listened...THANKS GUYS =) thursday everything was cool...uhm so i came home lai out for bit then me an mom did a lil bay shoppin...i went an saw my "BEST FRIEND" =) haha right DREW! lil me an drew joke..anyways yes i do love u drew i jus had a bad week i know i promised to stay with u but i dint get a chance! anyway we watched king of the hill an real world the s*#! they should have shown haha an i tickle his arm an played with his hair like normal...then on my way home i talked to ryan for a while...ahah such a PUNK! whatt happened to layin out? today has felt like saturday to me cus mom was off...it was HAPPPPPPPPY BIRTHDAY ALLLLLIIIII DAY!!! =) awww my baby kitties were born todayyy =) YEA! =) anyway me an mom went SHOPPPPPIN! we had a BLAST we shopped for so long an ali had such a goo bday! and i got a new fone! me mom an ali went to the movies tonite an we had a GREAT time..really! we saw cinderella story it was FANTASTIC i want that movie! me an mom are goin to the beach tomorro YEAH! haha but uhm im not in the whining mood rite now so ill let u know when i am....by the way thanks for the stares =)

PARENTS SUCK

2004-07-21T15:37:00.000-07:00

does 30 yrs really qualify u to be a complete jerk? i mean i know that parents supposedly know best...but mine are almost always ridiculous...ill give them a few times when they were right but MOST of the time..they freak out when there is no reason...they act as if i have no stress and that my life is this perfect little dream and im a lazy good for nothing kid who has no clue about life and could qualify as the worst kid in the world...but heres a little news flash...MY LIFE ISNT PERFECT....and u MOM and u DAD make it so much harder and so much worse...whether u know it or not every stress u have u put on me to worry about...then there are my own problems....and another thing there is a lot of parents who would love to have a kid that is smart and focused an knows what they want out of life...ok so im hard headed an i have to have everything MY WAY...u raised me that way! u told me to stand for what i want....an to fight for what i want....so how can u now try to punish me for that?? just bc i dont believe in everything that U do doesnt mean i dont have the right to believe in something...you can not choose everything for me...im almost 18...its time u let me do the choosing...and sit back and watch me become the person you raised me to be...I LOVE YALL but yall have got to chill out and let go!...when people told me my senoir year woul be the worst year of my life...i didnt fully understand until now...the stresses of not only yall, boys, my friends, sports, grades, but now worrying bout COLLEGE an life AFTER HERE...its a big deal to me...and im jus tryin to have a good summer b4 the reality hits...i hope you understand =)

TO MY FRIENDS

2004-07-20T22:41:00.000-07:00

JESSICA: doll u are great...really..ur like my bestest friend an we have some GREAT times ahah were so crazy and weve both been through SO much so i know u understand where im comin from and that makes it so much easier to talk to u bout the important stuff...i know that i dont have to tell u...but im here....i love u...and ill be here for u when stuff gets tough...its crazy that we became friends bc of some stupid boy cheatin on u! im glad that uve known me that long bc u understand everything bout my life an uve kinda experienced most of it..even it was from a far...u better go to ole miss and move in with me an cass...you would be the PERFECT 3r roommate for our house! this summer has been a blast and me an u will have to visit our boys when fall starts bc i know we will be miserable with out them! anyways i have missed u LOTS this week so HURRY HOME! =) haha

CASSIE: ROOOOMIE! haha yeh im PUMPED bout olemiss i dont care how long away it is! weve been through alot...an im so glad that were still friends...ive told u so many times how great u are...and even tho we dont spend alot of time together ur still one of my best friend an u know im always here =) we have so many funny memories together...an if we can make it through this last year of hell....then we can have lots more! ahah hopefully they wont include useless trips where we r miserable and have to sit on roofs to talk on the phone! but lookin back its hillarious...just like all of our lil arguments...in the end im glad they have happened..they made us grow up...and well not many people are able to still be friends! but i love u lotsssssssss!!!!=)

DREW: haha sweetheartttttt! your fantastic this summer has been so much fun! im so so so happy me and u are close! uve kept me company so many times this summer when i otherwise would have been at hoe lonely...which we BOTH hate...haha ur house has bcome like my 3rd home...i mean dereks pillows are basically MINE now.. when u go back to state and leave me and jess here by ourselves u better be expecting visits and lots of phone calls an texts! u better come home to see me too! which i must admit u were good with doing so las year =) ur so adorable and so sweet to me...unless ur tryin to be shady or punkish! ahha the way u gett so into tv shows is so adorable to me...and i know u love me only bc i can scratch arms play with hair and rub backs good...but its ok cus at least u love meeee =) anyways i jus wanted u to know how great u are and how much i love u =)

MATT: haha my dear matt....like i even have to say anything...uhm i know ive done u wrong..and im so sorry...after that nite u dont know HOW long i felt guilty...we both know u are who i should have been with that whole time...but im dumb an maybe a lil scared that im not good enough for u...the past few weeks have been great..haha after we had our lil talks...me an jess both will NEVER forget the night at ur house...that was GREAT we both had so much fun...and hopefully u and drew did too...ahah me an jess said we will be like 40 an tellin our kids that story! ur soo sweet and ive always liked u so its not as if i need to tell u that...ahaha its understood now...u know im comin to see u in oxford the DAY softball is over...so u better not go to deercamp! ahha riiite i know u will! but seriously,...the 1st weekend i can im gonna come stay with U and only U i promise! ahah jess will prolly come but im sure u dont mind that =P haha anyways i loveeeeee my fatty! hahah and jus like drew i know u love me too only cus i play with ur hair an rub ur back hahah and dont forget i can open the bottle with ur buckle =) hahah im baddddddd plus i can tickle ur tummy and hey ur not bad at rubbin backs either...when u did i got chills and decided i didnt wanna go home! ahhaha anyways ill miss u when u leave me =( but dont worry cus in a year ill be your neighborrrrrrrrr =)

MATTHEW: allrite shady booty haha u knowwwwww u r! thanks for puttin up with me...i know i put u through hell sometimes...and whether u know it or not i appreciate it.... i know the past few weeks we havent been as close...and im sorry...im not sure if its all my fault but...ill take resposibility..ahhaha thanks for puttin up with all my name callin...like shady ass an asshole and punk an loser an jerk... bc even tho u make me mad u know im not gonna stay mad... haha and i always know how to fix everything...i jus play with ur hair and its all good... im not real sure how me and u bc such close friends but im glad that we did...bc even tho u get pissy sometimes...u are so sweet when u try...and i love u lots and lots...but im sleepy so im gonna go to bed...hhaha if u get jealous of me writin more for them ill write more for u..bc i have more i could say i jus cant type any longer...so nittttteee

2004-07-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

Come Pick Me Up
by Ryan Adams

When they call your name,
will you walk right up
with a smile on your face?
or Will you cower in fear
in your favorite sweater?

With an old love letter,
I wish you would...

I wish you would
come pick me up,
take me out,
fuck me up,
steal my records,
screw all my friends,
they’re all full of shit,
with a smile on your face.
and Then do it again...

I wish you would...
When you’re walking downtown,
do you wish i was there
do you wish it was me
with the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine
you know you could
i wish you would
come pick me up,
take me out,
fuck me up,
steal my records,
screw all my friends behind my back,
with a smile on your face.
and Then do it again.

I wish you would
i wish you’d make up my bed
so i could make up my mind
try it for sleeping instead
maybe you’ll rest sometime
i wish i could

HiHI

2004-07-20T17:18:00.000-07:00

hey blog havent written in a while huh? yeh my bad..uhm friday nite me an ali an mom went to eat at bonsai YEA! and then went to the mall...i was feelin kinda yuckky when i came home i went to jessys an some of her friends from copiah were over there..an i hung out with them for a bit ahah they called me a prick for goin to ole miss PUNKS! anyways then ryan an jd wanted me to go see anchorman...aw poor ryan got his wisdom teeth taken out...OUCH! so i go...but the movie is already started so we get ice cream an go to ryans ryan fell asleep an me an jd watched pirates of the carribean til 1 somethin then i was like i gotta go home...so we woke ryan up an then jd walked outside with me an we popped each others backs ahha hes a SWEETHEART! saturday me an mom went to oxford...a lil get a way trip...it was fun...we went to talk to erin then affter that we went to eat an to the shops an rode aroun...i got home an was EXHAUSTED! so i wne tto bed...i missed my boys so so so so terribly bad! they were in fl an my jess shes gone too! so sunday me an cass decide to go out...ROOMMATE BONDINGGGGGG =) haha so i met her in byram an we went to eat at red lobster haha took us FOREVER to decide...we met some cool waiter haha he thought we were in college...food was good as always...afterwards we went to marble slab WOW! haha yeh great stuff...then we went to see the notebook...it was soooooo good i like LOVED it it madee me cry like 3 times...then we came home...on my way home i saw cory an corey an i talked to them for a few minutes...then it was BED TIMEEE well actually i talked to drew for a bit til he went to bed an then JD for a bit... uhm monday me an cass laid out i got a lil red but we had fun ahaha wish i could have some of those "hott guys" haha riiiiite....then i had practice yuck! i started hurtin real bad cus of my kindeys! it sucked...on the way home i stopped an talked to my sweetie matt haha he made fun of me i knowwww i was GROSS! haha he made me feel better bout it tho...then i came home took medicine an laid aroun..but i g2g eat then prac ill finish later k byeeee

2004-07-15T14:01:00.000-07:00

My Happy Ending

by Avril Lavigne

Album
: Under My Skin

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

WELCOME BACK LIL BUDDY!

2004-07-15T13:47:00.000-07:00

haha hey havent wrote in a weeeeeek! uhm CRAZYYY well friday we laid out an then the game got canceled so me jess drew an matthew all went to see ANCHORMAN....omg its GREATTTTTTT =) haha me an jess were kinda mad at the boys but its A OK...after the movie we all went to the housee i had a game the next day...we won the state tournament YEA and prouty is gonna buy my bike YEA haha uhm sunday me an jess laid out an then uhm haha i caused a lil accident an her phone got adventurous and went DEEP SEA DIVINGGGGG haha OOOOOOPPPSS! so we rushed it to the emergency room but nothing could be done...it was dead...that nite me an her an matt an drew all were gonna "go" hahah so we went to bufffffalllooo buff a loooo buff allooo haha anyway and then rode aroun the resevoir...then went back to matts...that nite could have possibly been the funnest nite ALL summer long...haha we had a better butt contest...AH HES WATCHINGGG US! =P monday not much happened uhm that ntie me an al snuck out an went to jess's haha we spent the nite an the next day was ROAD TRIP DAYYYYY we went to CHOCTAW hah geyser falls...anyway it was so fun we had a blast...the way back was HILLARIOUS HANNAH UR A TRIP! omg it was great...throw me some more cookies girls!that nite i had practice YUCkK! then i went to bed! yesterday we ran errands all day an matthew made me so mad i NEVER EVER whine or get mad an hes tired of my crap? excuse me? yeh ok pleasse ACT LIKE A GIRL! gah! hah its cool tho...me jess an matt went out to eat cus the COOL GUYS were out with other people...so anyways we met up with them and yeh i was jus like can we go? so i sat in the car with drew an ignored everyone else...then me an matt had a heart to heart on the way home..i love that boy =) im soooo sorry i really did feel bad bout that nite...u know how i feel about all of that...and NO that comment was NOT to make U feel bad too..bcus its UR FAULT...me an jess are gonna come stay with uuuuuu =) then when jess an drew met back up with us we went to matts an watched tv it was fun...i got home pretty late...haha when matt rubbed my shoulders i wanted to jus stay! but u know how that goes...me an jess got home an had a BLAST jokin around and then it was bed time...anyways i guess ur caught up huh well illlllll go home now byebyeeeeeeeee

HiHi

2004-07-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

hey blogg nogg haha wut? anyways past few days ive been in SUCH a bad mood an so mad at drew an matthew...but las nite we cleared that up...i think? i dunno matthew made an weird comment las nite but today eh was ok....uhm hayley an me talked for a while today shes sweet..omg somewoman had like road rage it was SO funny...but uhm tonight i went to drews with jess an we watched any given sunday,...i was of coarse the spoiler an rub jess's back then played with drews hair then gave matt a massage...me an matt talked for a while wen i got home..he made me sad! haha hes such a punk gah! mom said i wasnt gonna ever get married an i told jess an she was like NOOO not true...and said STEPHANY AUTUMN WEST will marry WILLIAM MATTHEW CLIBURN on April 12, 2010 in a garden? haha an drew flanigan and matthew jurgens will be the best men and I jessica perry will be the maiden of honor and lil ali cat will be the maid of honor...and u will wear a BEAUTIFUL off white dress and then she started bein gay cus my brides maids WILL NOT WEAR BLACK U PUNK! they will wear PINK! hahaha but the rest didnt sound bad jess haha hope ur rite! otherwise no marriage =( but i know its like only one and all but im exhausted!! omg and some random dude at the gas station like gave me and jess 10 dollars how CRAZY is that!? yeh weirrrdd???? but o well thanks BUDDY! anyways me an jess figured out why we were so mad an in such BAD moods hahaha OUR KIDDNEYSSSSS! =) anyways yeh its bed time niteynite

BAD DAY =(

2004-07-05T20:36:00.000-07:00

today has been absolutely terrible i really think i might cry...this mornin i woke up way too then i was in a bad bad mood so i jus laid aroun i talked to matthew an he was sweet thank goodness cus i culdnt take much more..so then jess has vaca bible school so we cant lay out an im sad so uh i got dressed an argued with eevryone cus they say i dress like a slut or sumthin an uh then we go to walmart thats always fun then come home uhm the rest of the nite id rather not talk about but its been terribly depressing and matthew an josh are the only ones who care =( me an jess are totally unloved it sucks so im goin to get in my bed an watch my so called life bcus well thats all i have l;eft to do an then im gonna cry an go to sleepp good nite

its been ONE of THOSE days

2004-07-05T03:10:00.000-07:00

hey blog today has been TERRIBLE 1st we woke up way too late...then i was in a BAD mood uhm...yeh i jus DONT like my dad rite now...mike got all pissy...then we came home...when i got home me jess an cass all went out...gah i felt so FAT an so UGLY...but i was like w/e...then i get like HUNG UP ON and yelled at by matthew which made me mad...but i was like u know what SCREW THEM...so we go eat it was yum then somehow i ended drivin? but uhm we go to some loser party out in brandon with hcs alumni an i was like can we please leave????? BUT WAIT it getws BETTER then me an jess go to the car to call my mom an heyyyyy theres the assholes...so we wave an uhm their "friends" are with them so we laugh an were like terrific so thats why were gettin treated TERRIBLE so we go inside an SIT somemore an im like lets gooooo but of coarse we DONT then matthew an drew walk in an the entire time they r therre they couldnt say a single word to us so me an jess were both SUPERRRRRR pissed and we finally left an go to an AWESOME party but it was late an we culdnt stay long...uh and then i get called like 6 times bcus MATTTHEW all hail matthew wants directions to where we r....so uhm lemme get this striaght....one of my BEST friends is too good to talk to me bcus sum girls are around but he isnt too good to ask directions?? and uhm then jess yelled at himm YEA! and i talked to him an was smart but uh yeh im still sad/mad...so now its 5 in the mornin an i cant sleep...but uhm im gona try to go back to bed bcus this freakin SUCKS! my feelings are totally hurt an i feel like dirt so this suckssssssss gah ok anyways bad mood haha can u tell? so im goin nitenite or well mornin mornin or SOMETHIN

BEDTIME

2004-07-01T22:14:00.000-07:00

hey blog today has been retarded nothin much has happened an ive felt OH SO LONELY =( it sucks...i heard this song when i was listenin to my jewel cd an i was like wow...yeh ive DEFINITELY felt like that..which im sure EVERYONE who has had a crush has...haha when u like care bout someone alot an they can jus smile the rite way an MELT ur whole body...yeh been there...one of those if i could jus be close to them i dont even have to date them if only they wuld CARE type things...sadly to say ive had more of those lately than i have people who care...O WELL shannon asked me an ali if we had boyfriends today ha BAD subject! i was like uh no...ali doesnt want one and i cant get one...gahhhhhhh its makin me mad! o well ill live...its not as if i even NEED one...i mean i have a year left in this god forsaken town and school and then im gone...i wouldnt be suprised if my fam moves then too...tomorro we are goin to birmingham which i personally think is RIDICULOUS bcus all it is gonna do is RAIN but o well im gone to bed nite

A SWEET LIL SONG

2004-07-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

JEWEL LYRICS

"Near You Always"

Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
and they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me
Please don't look at me like that
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
And please don't come so close
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't bring me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It just makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
And it makes me want to make you near me always
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
And it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

IIIII WANT A BOYYYYYY =(

2004-06-30T17:48:00.000-07:00

haha hey blog yeh i know im o so whiney! me an jess both whine about it all the time! monday me an ali an jess went to the mall an jess got alot of cute stuff =) haha always happy when she goes shoppin cus i wear her clothes! but after we shopped we decided we would take matthew a I LOVE YOU suprise...so we go to bops an we get him a BIG BUBBA and my gah its huge! it like melted on the way to his house...his puppy an mommy are sick =( he was happy an so he sat out there an talked to us for a really long time an we had fun uhm he had a balloon an told us to draw on it and DONT let it fly out the window! so we said ok an gave him a big i love you hug an we came home...that nite me an jessy went to macaroni grill an made a friend YEAH! but ill tell u that when i get home from drews im outtie bye! haha ok im back anyways we met a friend his name was MAC and he is one CoOl dude haha rite jessy? anyways then we went to the mall yeh again....we saw a drew look a like! and uhm then we went to the movies an talked an waited on them...drew an matthew got there and it was DODGE BALL TIME! so we got to the movie an matthew was bein mean to me! haha whats new and i kept sayin NOW do u wanna be sweet? cus i had him a suprise...but he didnt know it...so finally when he got back from gettin somethin to drink i said u member the rubber band i broke..(he got real mad i broke his lucky rubberband) and he said YES an i said well i fixed it...kinda...but its better! an he was like DID U REALLY? haha he was happy so it made me happy =) haha so i got his replacement one...the movie was good..we made them mad tho cus me an jess kept talkin...afterwards they were gay an went home an we didnt want to so we road past the house jessy wants omg its so cute! i love it! then we went down mcleur...and UTOH! bad news! a black cat ran in front of my car an we like FREAKED OUT then i made an x an so did jes an then we saw a freakin car pulled over an omg we are like screain an i speed up an shes yellin GO GO yeh its a COP! gahhhhh then were gonna go meet matt an trey an we see a guy walkin down the street an scream! then we go play on the play ground an the boys try to scare us! then we come home an they pull outside alis window an moon us haha...the next mornin we go to waffle house an to lay out get tired of that an play twister an monopoly I AM THE TWISTER QUEEN! didnt lose a game...uhm then we lost that dang balloon so i had to chase it down siwell an it got hit by 4 trucks! then we colored it it was soooooo adorable! then i had practice an then it was JO SCHOMO TIMEEEEEE so when we get there i play with matthews hair for 19 hours while he laid on top of me then he left an me an matt fought...drew kept callin me a dike bcus i play softball FREAKIN PUNK! but uhm then we went to wendys an matt followed us home...uhmmm then it was bed time...today i had to go back to daphne yuck...but wen i got home we rented movies an went to drews uhm i tickled his arm an we watched king of the hill haha me an jss planned our trip an we have it worked out so we can see drew =) YEAH! haha but my back hurts an im sleepy...im tryin to pass a kidney stone YUCK so its pain medicine time!

HHELLLOOOO BLOGGER

2004-06-27T16:21:00.000-07:00

hi hi im in an amazing mood haha las nite was so boring i sat here an watched movies an talked to old friends that i havent heard from..uhm i watched unfaithful i had already seen it but i hadnt seen the end so i watched the end it had SUCH a yuck ending! but its an amazing movie so its cool...this mornin i woke up an me an ali went to nanas ive watched like 9 movies today haha im such a retard but hey they r GREAT! for some reason today everything has seemed RIGHT again? well cept my too punk friends wont answer their phones! URH! bad bad! uhm yeh las nite i put like every song i loved on here ford asked me how i had been an i told him im great an he said well i always tell u what great things are happenin in my life so its ur turn an i was like u know ford NOTHING good has happened im jus happy...an he said thats even better...u could read all those lyrics an think wow stef must like FINALLY have found someone but NOPE definitely NOT haha im still dorky retarded no guy lazy bratty ME but uhm yeh anyways today at nanas it was so weird i felt like i was 5 again...like my cousin i NEVER talk to anymore was there an we actually had conversations and she was like NORMAL and well thats jus weird! an we all ate together an nana told us bout goin to bourbon street an i dunno it was jus so weird i love my nana she is the BEST grandmother ever! coach came over haha he always tells me to "stay outta trouble" today he said i look like ive been in trouble i was like nahhhh not me!~ im an angel!~ ali gave me a pedicure an nana gave me a manicure haha it was fun an then they all made fun of me from when i was a baby haha i used to sing wildthang which now is appropriate dont u think haha an i said refridgerate an dalt an erk haha i was like OKKKKKKK GUYS I WAS LIEK 1!!! and i sang startrek 80? whattttt? ahha i dont remember this nonsense but o well...anywaysss yeh had a great day will be sure to write later byeeeeeee =)

MORE SONGSSSSS =)

2004-06-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

You're The Only One
by Maria Mena

Well I saw you with your hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes,
And I said I've never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said
“I still know how to turn you on though”

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like the time when I forgot to tell you about the scar,
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected,
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me,
And you're such a great kisser,
And I know that you agree
And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs and said it was small,
Cause it's really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around,
Cause the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me!
And you're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

Exactly what I need

Well I saw you with you hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

Better Than Nothing
by Maria Mena

i don't want to have to build this
i don't want to have to fit in
i don't want to have to need someone

but i do..

i don't want to have to attrect boys
i don't want to have to be luse
i don't want to have to eat to fill the hole
but i do..

but it's better than nothing at all
but it's better than nothing at all

i don't want to have to be angry at you
i don't want to have to blame it on my father
i don't want to have feel sick around you
but i do..

i don't want to ever fall in love
i don't want to feel so insecure
i don't want to have to write this to explain
still i do
this feels better than nothing at all...

Just A Little Bit
by Maria Mena

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Hiking up my skirt
Asking for your time

Clearly, clearly I remember
Nervous if ever confronted
And questioning myself

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I got better
Perhaps if I challenged myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Pulling up my shirt
Staring blank ahead

Clearly, clearly I remember
Days of useless crying
Almost feeling dead

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller
Perhaps, I could control myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

oooooaaaah oooooaaahhh
ooooaaaah oaaa'aaah

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

SATURDAY?

2004-06-26T21:49:00.000-07:00

ok so i gave the shrek2 theme song =)i absolutely LOVVVVVVVE that movie~! ahah but anyways yeh im in a pretty good mood YEaAH!so anyways uhm yesterday was a LAY around day...i like literally laid here an talked to matthew online the ENTIRE day...me an ali watched my so called life...it was sooooo good! jessy called an we talked for a bit..she had an UTOH! ahha an we both talked bout how we hate HER...an she better not be pretty!~i watched eyes wide shut which is a REALLY strange movie! then i called matthew to tell him nite....i was gonna go to drews but i never quite felt like takin a shower...omg las nite i had SUCH weird dreams! the past two nites actually....uhm one time i had a dream i was gettin married! an then las nite was like i dunno jus freaky..i was like WUUUUHHT? this mornin me an ali took a shower then we got dressed an went to the mall...nothingggg was really there...so we went out to eat =) when we got home i took a nap then i got up an we watched ms mississippi...haha 1st time ive EVER been home for it! jalin won! YEAHHHH! shes who i wanted to win....i always have liked robyn davis...me an ali have met her she was in a pageant with ali....an shes so beautiful an sweet an has SUCH good presence! but shes too old now so she cant be in it! so my new fav is jalin! ahha an me an ali were in such good moods we were like strippin an teachin pug tricks....awww custard was sleepin an looked SO cute...custard is my stray cat....she wont let u touch her so we jus feed her...i made mom play with my hair but shes not too good at it! not like me =) haha i promised matthew when he gets home it will be be nice to matthew day =)drew has disappeared to GEYSER FALLS! stupid PUNK! haha i LOOOVVVEE YOUUUU! anyways im sleepy an A GREAT MOVIE is about to be on haha FERRIS BUELLERS DAY OFF....its jus like everyday at my house cince i ALWAYS skip school =) anyways i guess thats it...i will be SURE to write again soooooooooon =)

JUST SOME SONGS =)

2004-06-26T21:44:00.000-07:00

Pieces Of Me
by Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday I am waiting
On Tuesday I am fading
And By Wednesday I can’t sleep
When the phone rings I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
I see you’ve come to rescue me

Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts

Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am rurally and messy
I get restless and it’s senseless
And you never seem to care
When I’m angry you listen
When you’re happy it’s a mission
And I won’t stop till I’m there

Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
Well I hit that far don’t crash
You’re all I have

Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know?
Everything I’m about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it’s written on my face
I hope it never goes away
Yea

On a Monday I am waiting
By Tuesday I am fading
Into your arms
So I can breathe

Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

Accidentally In Love
by Counting Crows

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love... I'm in love

The REST of the week...

2004-06-24T21:07:00.000-07:00

well anways uhm i guess i stopped on monday or tuesday huh? well monday we woke up an went to the condo...me cade ali karen an mom all went out to the beach an had a blast me an cade got SO much closer gah he is SO adorable!! ahah we said whos your girlfriends? an he put his arms aroun me an ali an said IM A PIMP it was ADORABLE~! i told him he was a nut an he said no u a nut! aw it was jus o so cute! when summer an justin got there summer had lost SoO much weight i was like wow she looks like the old summer!~then we got in the pool...we had a blast that day...that nite me mom ali an karen all walked the beach for a really really long time...an me an cade an ali walked for a while an sum ugly dude hit on me haha..when we got back we all sat on the balcony an had some drinks caden was like i want sum! an summer was like no this is old juice u get new juice haha..me an mom watched who wants to marry my dad while ali put caden to bed...then we went swimmin.,...i talked to my doll matthew an he went to bed...then me an al gal watched tv an went to bed....brite an early the next mornin caden jumped on my bed tellin me he was spiderman an attackin me...so i got dressed an we went to the beach...i laid on my CUTEEEEEE polkadot raft til it started rainin then we ate an packed an got dressed an me an mommy came home...that nite me an jessy went to drews to watch jo schomo with the boys....then we watched unfaithful....i played with matthews hair the entire time i was there...an jess laid on the mattress on the floor with darling drew im mad at matt...stupid prick...he like LIKES lacey or somethin i dunno i think thats RETARDED but none of MY business so w/e....then me an jess jess come home after we tell the boys bye...matthew almost left w/o tellin me bye so i ran outside an jumped in his arms an was like yeh u better not leave without tellin me bye so we hugged and then me an jess came home...it was a fun/boring nite....uhm yesterday i laid aroun ALLLLLLL day i watched along came polly which is SO adorable...and then bruce almighty....then i got dressed an went to drews an me an him laid in the bed an watched south park that 70s show king of the hill an the end of bruce almighty..then i came home an went to bed...we are SUCH boring people all we do is layin aroun an watch tv haha its ridiculous...im really glad i can like lay there with them an jus watch tv tho...i love them...today i woke up an called matthew to tell him good mornin then i watched dawson...after that i went to nanas an ate an did payroll an got dressed...mom came to get me an we went to get ali an then home...longgg trip...me an al gal jus watched along came polly again...i learned a great saying....

U HAVE TO LET GO IT ISNT ABOUT THE PAST OR THE FUTURE ITS ABOUT THE RIDE....ALL THAT CRAP U GO THROUGH ISNT WORTH IT IF U DONT ENJOY THE RIDE....AND WHO KNOWS SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY YOU MAY GET SOMETHING BETTER THAN YOU EVER COULD HAVE PLANNED FOR

i loved that quote...thought it was TERRIFIC! but uhm yeh i guess its bed time huh? i love u my lil blog blog nitey nite

HmM?

2004-06-23T15:42:00.000-07:00

hey blog i havent written in detail in so long so this will be a change....im gonna write about las week 1st so u will be filled in...then ill tell u bout this week...

TUESDAY: i had practice as normal an i dont member too much about it so obviously it wasnt too special..i think there werent many people there...after practice i came home an changed an went to treys uhm ryan an matthew an matt an drew were all there...and i dont member too terribly much about the nite...i know that i was bored...an that we watched pimp my ride an real world...uhm me matthew an ryan went on a lil adventure an i made them pissed off....we went to a gas station an had one of the scariest experiences of my LIFE i think i almost DIED! some man like attacked us an matthew ran over his feet! matt was such a jerk actually u know he has been for a while now like we dont even talk! but this began the jerkiness....
WEDNESDAY: uhm yeh i stayed at home an talked to matthew for a bit not much happened wednesday that i can think of....
THURSDAY: had practice and ran my lil butt off it sucked terribly then i went to treys uhm there were some INTERESTING people there...? but w/e i felt hated an i jus wanted to leave...REAL BAD...lately matthew has become one of my best friends an he was so hateful...drew was the only person there that was sweet to me! i was really upset when i came home an i told ali bout it...uhmmm yeh it sucked...
FRIDAY: well wen drew gets home from work i went over there an he was in the bed so i laid with him an tickled his arm for like an hour then matthew gets there an hes in a sad bad mood so i go give him a hug and make him an i love u note then i played with his hair for a really long time cus it always makes him happy...they were goin to jubilee jam an i couldnt go so i kept tellin them to stay home with me but they didnt...matt was grumpy when he called matthew haha i talked to him cus i was the phone keeper uhm then we met him at mcalisters an the WORLD was there...lb gave me some tea an a cookie =) haha an i talked to stephanie burt for a lil bit...uhmmm then we went to matts an i played with matthews hair again cus the poor boy got sick...then i went home an to bed...
SATURDAY: we had a tournament an we did pretty good i felt terrible tho an i thought matthew had made me sick or somethin an i caled to wake him up but he didnt so anyway i whined to mom for a really long time...i hit a grand slam in one game yea =) an uhm i told mike i was takin the week off...that nite i wanted to go get this CUTE shirt but the freakin mall was closed i was pissed! i called the boys an they were plannin on goin bak to jubilee jam...so i get me some food an get ali...the guys are jus goin to drews but i have to pack so i cant go =(....im still hurtin bad too..an im so tired! so i tell drew an matthew nite an go to bed....
SUNDAY: mom an dad are worried bout me cus i have blood in my pee but im like im fine i swear i dont hurt (i really did) an i said its jus dehydration im fine! so the whole way to gulf shores i had to drink water....lots...an but the blood didnt go away...when we got there my uncle kept tellin me its serious an i should go to a dr....well i didnt think so until i felt the WORST pain ive ever experienced! i was cryin i hurt so bad! mom took me to the emergency room an i had kidney stones...they had to hook me up to an iv an stuff it was sorta scary they thought i mite would have to stay the nite! that nite i took my medicine an went to bed....
MONDAY: me an ali played on the beach with baby caden an taught him how to say IM A PIMP! haha hes so precious! he likes me now =) hahah but uhm im tired im goin to lay down ill finish this stuff later byee

LiFe Or SoMeThIn LiKe It

2004-06-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

ok blog so i wrote allllll this stuff las nite an like ALL my emotions an then it didnt even post how bad does that suck huh? but uhm yeh the past few nites ive gone to treys...las nite sucked...matthew hurt my feelins me an ryan arent speakin lacey an ashley kinda snickered everytime i was near..i dunno i felt unlvoed drew was sweet tho..today everythin btween me an matthew got ok..wen he got to drews we were in the bed an i was scratchin drews arm haah i was swashin drew so i sat in the chair for a while an matthew looked like he was so sad so i gave him a huge hug an told him how much i loved him it helped =) then i played with his hair...then we laid on dereks bed for a long time an i played with his hair...he started feelin sick poor boy i hope hes ok...we went to mcalisters an then to matts...but uhm im frezzin an i have a game brite an earlier ill be more detailed next time i promise =)

JACK JOHNSON.....WASTING TIME

2004-06-15T13:34:00.000-07:00

trey showed me this song an i jus love it..haha its so ME...its kinda how ive looked at love lately an well LIFE i guess...its one of his fav songs too...=)

i'm just a waste of her energy
and she's just wasting my time
so why don't we get together
and we could waste everything tonight
and we could waste
and we could waste it all tonight
i don't pretend to know what you know
now please don't pretend to know what's on my mind
if we already knew everything that everybody knows
we would have nothing to learn tonight
and we would have nothing to show tonight
but everybody thinks that everybody knows
about everybody else but nobody knows
anything about themselves
because they're all worried about everybody elselove is just a waste of our energy
and life is just a waste of our time
so why don't we get together
and we could waste everything tonight
and we could waste
and we could waste it all...
but everybody thinks that everybody knows
about everybody else but nobody knows
annything about themselves
because they're all worried about everybody else

HiHi It Is TuEsDaY =)

2004-06-15T13:27:00.000-07:00

hey kiddddddd wutup uhm las nite i went to treys an we chilled had fun i guess it was jus me him an drew most the time..his dog LOVED me haha he like laid on top of me an licked my ears =) me an ryan argued but he has me so mad rite now RRRR! me an drew laid on the couch an slept an watched king of the hill an some of treys friends from hinds came over...uhm that was bout it...today i got up an went to the dentist OUCH! haah i was high on happy gas tho it was GREAT hahah my dentist was like ever takin a sobriety test? an i was like NO! haha he laughed he was like i know ive known u since u were born! he was like lil ali is gonna be drivin u home! an i was like no sir! she has before tho! haha then me an al gal went an walked aroun dogwood we got some pretty panties from vikki secrets =) i bought a pair for al gal an a pair for me =) we went an ate at mellow mushroom an then came home aw i lost my lil rhinestone A & F im so depressed! matthew an matt jus called an serenaded me again...i love when matthew does that cus it makes me laugh ahha this time it was ALMOST PERFECT =) memory is still my fav but yall did a BeAuTiFuL job boys haha =) i have practice tonight and i am def dreadin it! i have to hit in a few minutes an i really really dont want to but it will be ok...uhmm but i guess im gonna take a nap? or hit? i dunno write ya later taterr byee kiss kiss =)

AnoThEr WeEkeNd PasT

2004-06-14T15:31:00.000-07:00

Mmmmm you an find me in St. Louie
Where tha gun play rang all day(nanana)
Some got jobs and some sell yea
Others just smoke and **** all day

well the ride to st. louis wasnt bad at all..me an anna an ll an beth had so so so so so so so sso much fun! it felt like a 2 hr drive an it was like 7! we played cards an talked an ll was playin pregnant an i dunno she got stuck in the seat...we had make overs it was jus like comic relief the WHOLE time! =) we stopped at lamberts an had a blast there the food was sooooo good! =) we started gettin called red necks tho =( haha once we got there me ll anna an beth went swimmin we had some INTERESTING convos haha an ran the other girls outta the pool! i bout chipped my tooth cus i was playin with the life saver rings! then we had to get ready for the game...we lost shoulda won but u know how that goes! we got done aroun 11 somethin an i was soooo pissed i called mom an like cried an i was like i jus wanna come home! an i was so upset..then lil bethany came an got in the bed with me an we watched zenon z3 then the next mornin came SUPER early i couldnt sleep in that bed with dad it was impossible! he stole the covers an rolled on top of me...ll an dale were stayin in our room so..we played 6 b2b games an we won all but one but mike still wasnt HaPPy...the las game everbody got really pumped an we played absolutely awesome aw an i chased a bunny! one of our games we had a HOTTTTTTTT umpire! wow yeh...then these other 2 umpires they were so sweet they messed with me an were like why dont u have a bf? ur pretty! are u mean? do u run them off? an i was like NOOOO =( it was sad haha but sweet =) that nite we went to dt st louis and it was soo so so so so pretty an an absolute blast! MEMMMMORRIIIIESSSS =) aw did i tell u bouth matthew serenading me thursday nite and singin me my FAVORITE SONG? yeh he did...he called an was screamin an i was like huh? and he was like THIS MAY NEVER START WE COULD FALL APART AND I BE YOUR MEMORYYYYYY and i was like AWWWWWWW MATTHEW!!!! its my favorite song!!! an it was in the background and he was like i knowwwww thats why im singin it haah i was like im gonna cry! an he was like good good...it made me EXTREMELY HAPPY haha friday i told him it was the HIGhLIGHT of that nite! o but back to st louis...we allllll had NiCKnAMesS haah i was ROSEY =) and we called each other thoses names the wholeeee time! and we kept hearin bells an i was like FOR WHOM THE BELL TOLLS? haha little lit class for ya.... we really did have a blast tho gah i was havin fun but i still missed my BEST FRIENDS...that night when we went in there was some people in the lobby eatin shrimp cocktails an drinkin whine an they offered me some an i said no thanks...i came back down for a fork an the guy was liek speakin of beautiful voices there is the beautiful girl that came thru a minute ago...an i smiled an i was like hey an they said ur from the south arent u an i was like yes mississippi and they said well we love ur accent u talk so pretty...an i was like thank u..an they said ur such a cute girl a guy that works with us goes to ole miss an i was like omg THATS where im gonna go an we talked for a while they were really sweeat =) the next mornin if we won both the games...we would be in the finals..but we didnt...so we went home after the 11 game...our 1st game we had the hott umpire again and to tell the truth as we were gettin beat i was sittin in right field thiinkin wut wuld he do if i jus ran up there an took off his clothes? ahha i wonder how he kisses? and crazy stuff like that...after the 2nd game i talked to the girls we had jus played an they were so pretty they made me feel ugly! but they were so so so sweet an they told me they liked the way i talked too an i was like aw thank u!! in btween the 1st an 2nd game i talked to this really nice lady she was funny...but anyways i met a bunch of nice people....the ride home wasnt bad...2day ive jus slept...matthew was supposed to be nice today but he hasnt....we will jus have to change that but im gonna go get dressed maybe? i dunno byeeee

HeLLo Stranger

2004-06-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

hey okk so i know its BEEN aWHILE but well ive not been to extremely busy been home everynite b4 12 ive jus felt like bein shady to ya blog..my good friends taught me how =) ha jk jk i love u boys...uhm LATELY yeh i really havent written jus bcus i dont feel like havin everyone all up in my business but uhm lemme look an see when the las time ive written was so i can give u a SUMMARY...ok so uhm MONDAY well i was gonna go to matthews an play with his hair an take a nap but we both had stuff to do so we didnt...i went an watched ali perform...her stunts were pretty good..uhm afterwards matthew an drew were shady as hell an hurt my feelings so i met up with matt an trey an we rode aroun btown...A BLAST LEMME TELL U...bout fell asleep in the back..hah one EXCITING thing did happen but its a secret SHhHh =)...uhm then i came home an i talked to cory for a real long time..him and lindsey are over again...ha member that lil quote a while back...YEH...but i am here for him..he knows i care...uhm so then i fell asleep an ryan called...HM? but uhm the next day i met cory in the parkin lot an we tlked an rode around an stuff haah he made fun of me cus i had jus woken up but HEY i dont let just ANYONE see me like that! =) uhm wesley FREAKED bout all of it...and i dunno we dont really talk much which is sorta sad but hes been so jealous lately he needs to chill uhmmmm o BIG IMPORTANT THING my baby ali she has been gone ALL week and i miss her SO SO SO SO SO SO SO very much! i went an saw her yesterday an today her an britt got lunch brought to them today =) uhm ive napped alll day long i talked to matthew a lil bit...ive been mad at him hes been so mean! but hes my genie and im his lil slave so were ok... im goin to st louis in the mornin an im not to THRILLED about it but it will be ok..i will miss ya!~ ill be back monday tho so nitee

ThE WeEkEnD

2004-06-07T09:23:00.000-07:00

well hello there...this weeken we had softball an of coarse we lost again..we really do suck no joke im not sure why i still have to play but ok? im tryin to talk the parents into jus not goin to St louis...haha IM FROM TEH LOU an IM PROUD =) hah anyway...on the way home trey an matt called an told me to come swim at drews so im like k sounds good...i come home an take a quick bath an put on clothes...then its starts POURING down rain so im like hm well no swimmin but we go anyways..when we get there matthen an clarke r out there...and well ryan has been nice lately...but matthew has been a MAJOR punk the past week...so im like YEA...not..haha but anyways i chill on the couch an tickle matthews arm for like an hour then i lay on the couch cus im bout to PASSSSS OUT...they decide to leave so i steal ryans chair an then i laid with matt in his an we took a nap haha trey was walkin aroun bein weird an drew an me an matt an derek were chillin haha...so then we go get food at subway...then we go watch savin silverman in drews room...all the boys decided they should play "STRIP" stephany....i was wearin a bathing suit under my tshirt an shorts...so they stole my shorts an hung um way up high where i culdnt reach..then they kept holdin me down an untyin the sides i was like AHHH we have GOT to stop this! haah then i started gettin "snoopy fingers" WHATEVER that is! haha trey was like playin like a lil bug or somethin with his fingers an "walkin" on my stomach an sayin snoopy fingers i was like that tickles NO~! hahaha an we were like DYING out laughin from it...then trey attached matt an said he was his "migit teddy bear" an sayin YUM YUM? haha crazy? but then we went to the hizzy,....they were goin to eat at ole venice but i felt "uninvited" so i was stayin home...matt was stayin home to eat with the parents....trey called an yelled at me an said i was goin so i took a QUICK shower put gel in my hair an left...yeh i looked REALLLLLL cute...i had to sit in treys lap on the way so i could put on make up an hold my hair out the window to dry hahah it was funny i was like ok guys do i need eye liner? how bout shadow? need anything else? an they were like NO NO NO! an i was liek OKKKKKKKKK! but uhm matthew was still punky...so i was punky back! when we got to outback...(ole venice isnt open on sundays) me an matthew started sendin texts...mine were sweet =) his were mean =( omg we ate SOOOOO much food...TONS....and it was quite delicious! haha but after that we went to the dixie an talked then went out to drews...then to the hizzy....I LOST MY GARAGE DOOR OPENER!! bad...i talked to matthew las nite an told him he cant be mean anymore! he was nicer =) he was mad at me cus i didnt tell him bye...but i was mad at him plus he was a punk...an he didnt say bye to me neither so i was like FINE! we r A OKK now tho =) haha i told him i loved him an as usual he was liek uh huh an then told me to come play with his hair...i always play with his hair or tickle his arm...ryan an JD called and ryan had a coniption about HAVING TO CALL HIM BACK and when i did it was busy so yeh that was gay wesley called las nite on my way home from drews..an it kinda made me mad when i called him back,...cus it was almost like he called me to make me mad u know? cus he was like i was in front of ur house earlier an i was like o im on my way home...an he was like well ill talk to u later bye...why call if u wanted to say a sentence? i dunno jus made me feel like he was callin to blow me off...but it will all be ok...it so weird that im like hangin out withh ALL the guys that i used to be so close to..i never ever got to see them or talk to then durin school..an ryan an trey were right here...of coarse both of them were real mean an punks lately so i never ever ever talked to them or really cared too..but now were all cool thank goodness =)anyways its like almost 12 an jessy is NOWHERE to be found so i think im bout to call my sissy an go get her =) byeeee

FrIdaY AgAin?

2004-06-04T21:40:00.000-07:00

my summer is just flying by..its startin to be sad! gah! my boys will leave me again! but uhm las nite i was in SUCH a terrible mood...at practice all we did was run and it killed me...it was SO SO SO bad! durin one break i sent matthew a text that said i was in hell...but we got out early so i tried to find somethin to do but matthew was eatin with the mom an drew didnt wanna do anything..wehn i got ali she was in a bad moood too so we went home an ate fruit an vegetables since our GAY parents were nowhere to be found! uhm but today i woke up an i got ali to do my makeup i was WAY too lazy...me an her went to get her shots an then to eat at abners...after that we went to target and then to target an payless...we had fun....on the way home there was a BAD wreck so we had to go thru ghetto town to get home...tonight we had SHRIMP YUmMMmMMm =) and we packed an got stuff ready for the mornin...leavin at 4:30! gotta be up at 4! uhm but ill sleep the whole way there! me an dad hit...then i came in an my lil matt had called so i called him back an i went an met him so we could bond before we both went ooutta town =) ryan was with him an i REALLLLY didnt want everyone to see me cus i looked AWFUL...matt was like if u were about to go to sleep u can...u dont have to stay out bcus of me! an i was liek but i want to! so we made the block an listened to ryan go on an on an on bout arnold schwarztneger or HOWWEVER u spell that! he was ImPeRsOnAtIng hah me an matt were like STOP THAT! tehn wesley called an was liek i know where u r an wut ur doin an im like ok? so he yells at me an freaks out an i tell him i love him...but hes still mad... an i have to explain to matt an ryan then we talked an then they were goin to a club with horner..an im WORRIED about them! but i took them back an hugged matt bye an he kissed my lil cheek =) an then i went byebye...so now im sittin here helpin ali with secret sis and watchin my so called life =) so i need to go to bed so i can get 4 hours of sleep nite!

2004-06-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

Vindicated
by Dashboard Confessional

Album :
Submitted by :
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Rated : - (0 votes)

Hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
Roped me in so mesmorizing
And so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am...

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated
So motivated, I am certain now
That I am..

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So tired, of the corners of your lips
Bite them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defence is paper thin
Just one touch and I begin to deep now
to ever swim against the current

So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip against the current
So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

Like hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

my OK day and my REALLY bad nite

2004-06-03T10:00:00.003-07:00

heyy heyy yesterday mornin me an al cat got up an jess called and was all brite eyed an bushy tailed an like HEYYYYYYYY an i was like wow go to bed! haha but she was sayin the alarm people woke her up an that we could lay out an stuff when they leave....so i get dressed to lay out but they dont leave so i go outside an lay out...when i come in jess is ready to go so she comes an picks us up an we pick up this kid in clinton named colby..so we throw this HUGE raft in the back ahah it was TERRIBLE...and then we lay out/ swim....we couldnt stay long tho we got a headache =( so we took colby back an went to el sombrerro then ali went to cheer...las nite all 5 of us...jess matt mmatthew drew an me were all supposed to do somethin together...well jess bailed...an drew went to seth keshels...matthew yelled at me like 6 times cus i called while his phone was going dead I AM SORRY ALL KNOWING ALL POWERFUL! so i get dressed...SORTA...an go to matts...my hair was SO SO SO yuk cus jess had poured baby oil in it! well when i get to matts both of them were bein so mean! they hurt my feelings =( me an matthew REALLY didnt wanna go to keshels but matt did an so did drew so thats where we went uh yeh trey ashley an lacey were there so im like TERRIFIC....an i jus keep my mouth shut an sit there in matthews lap...matthew said in 10 minutes im sneakin away so i was like has it been 10 minutes yet? thennn the drunks decide they wanna go eat...an of coarse i really DONT wanna go but i get drugg along...then they stick ryan clarke in the back with me an i am like wow could this night get any better? so i beg matt to sit in the back but he wont an by the way matthew is still bein his hateful self....so i get out an they lock me out...trey was like the ONLY one bein nice...so i finally get back in an i call jess an im like come get me PLEASE! i am havin a terrible nite an they r bein mean an i cant do this! an she was like kk well matthew was like ur not leavin so u might as well hang that phone up...an he talks to jessica an she yells at him...then we make a truce...i played with his hair so he was nice...uhm lacey ashley trey an drew all got pulled over almost got a MIP..we were like dang glad its not us...an went to the gas station cus i had to pee...im still whining but they dont care... we get to applebees...an me matthew an clarke all get seated at a ttable by ourselves an we didnt even want anything so we were like lets just GO! so we did...the nite got alot better after that matthew was sweeter an me an ryan kinda stopped hatin each other...we jus rode aroun switched cars an then ryan tried to throw me out of the moving CAR i was like holy hell! wut r u doin! an holding him for DEAR liFE!then we decided we were friends bcus we both LOVE memory! he was like ur the only other person on earth who has heard the accoustic version an i was like well YEH i LOVE that SONG~! then we went to the gas station an talked...matthew is burnin the cd for me an him cus it was ryans cd...then matthew took me back to my car an i went to talk to wesley..then came home...i called lil matthew wen i got home cus he had jus as bad of a nite as i ddi if not worse...an yeh it had gotten worse...he had NO lights =( poor guy...i love you! uhm then i talked to matt an drew they wanted me to come spend the nite but yeh i couldnt..so i went to bed...i was wantin to go to bed all nite...so here i am now the next mornin i feel bad..io have practice tonite...an im kinda hungry..ill write later byee lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvve you

HiHi

2004-06-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

hey kidsssss uhm today wasnt bad..i was supposed to get up early go to my internship an then eat .lunch with drew an matthew but the shadies were shady so me an jess an ali went to eat an matt came swimmin with us =) we had LOTS of fun =) haha...bunch of dorks! we like did cheer stuff it was funny! matt was like tossin ali every which way...then we decided that were gonna marry jess so she can take care of us an me an jess started talkin bout CRAZY stuff an freakin matt out hahah it was funny/...i didnt get any sun tho...uhm then i had GAY practice we got 3 thousssssand speeches! but me an lil blaire babyu played an watched ali cheer =) then ali got done an me an ali lifted her an played cheer with her she is SO precious =) when i got home i watched the end of miss universe...my girl won!! australia~! she was BEAUTIFUL...and her dress was so sumthin I would wear =) everyone was boring an stayed home tonite so me an drew are plannin a EVERYBODY nite 2morro nite...normally its like me an him or me an matt or me him an matthew or me an matthew...but not tomorro nite! its me jessy matt matthew an drew...hahaha whether they like it or not !! gah i need a bath SOOO dang bad! o uhmmm colby...ali's new fling...hes comin swimmin with us tomorro an maybe if it rains matt can too! YEAAAA! aw me an jess an ali went to the new mcalisters! its so cute too much terry stufff tho =( we saw liz an courtney =) courtney gave us smileys an we put them on our phones....in the mornin me an ali an jess are goin secret sis shoppin...prolly target cus i lovvvvvvve target =)aquateen is about to come on and just as SOON as its over its bath/brush teeth/wash face/ice leg/heat leg time! haha im such a wah wah! matt made fun of my poor bo-bo! its alot better tho! uhmmm well i guess thats all huh? o i read some of kirk wilsons poems...i hjavent talked to him in ages but me an him are friends...anyways yeh he is an amazing lil poem writer...here is one =)

Maybe

I’d like to let you know
That I dream about you,
I don’t even know you that well
But your always on my mind

Love.. sometimes it sucks
But I think we should give it a try
Maybe we could start something
But who knows…

Sometimes I cry when I don’t see you
And other times, I’m furious
Maybe because you’re the one for me
We should be together

Now I know I sound crazy
But maybe we should get married
Just tell me if I’m sounding weird
I always get carried away

Maybe I’m not right for you
Maybe you should go on
Maybe you’ll find someone better…
You’re better off without me.
© Kirk Wilson

a friendly reminder

2004-05-31T22:15:00.000-07:00

just a lil reminder that most the "quotes" on this page were written by ME...so if i dont mention its a quote...then its my own thoughts/writing...dont plagarize =)

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2004-05-31T20:00:00.000-07:00

today has SUCKED! i slept most the day then when i got online me an wesley faught an he told me i wasnt his best friend anymore..so iw as like thanks GREAT! im so happy to know that? so i tried to stay HaPpY an i went to jess's then i came home an got dressed...i finally got to where i thought i looked cute so i called matthew...and i guess i was in a bad mood i dunno but he was bein gay so i was like jus call me later...then him an drew became extremely shady...wuts new? so i talked to jess an she was like yeh they always are...i texted them an called them a few times but they were gay...so i laid in the bed an watched a marathon of degrassi and what not to wear...i have to go to work tomorro and i REALLLLLLLLLLLY dont want to..i guess its not "work" its more of an internship...no pay...sucks bad...but im only doin it like 3 hrs a week or somethin...so ill be ok...but wakin up will be BAD....i think i need a bath an a bed im sad =( byee

HaPpPyYy MeMoRiAl DaYyY

2004-05-31T12:31:00.000-07:00

hey blogger wesley is mad at me...and he has a good reason to be...im sorry...weve been treatin each other quite terrible the past few weeks an were both sick of it...i have a feelin our friendship is over...he made me cry earlier so i dunno..ill always be here for u no matter what..im botu to get dressed an go to drews...were all cookin out or something i dunno...hopefully will be fun...but uhm i guess im gonna go rewet my hair so i can fix it an get dressed an wait on my mommy to get home from walmart...i love u...

GREATTTTT SONG

2004-05-30T19:00:00.000-07:00

Grand Theft Autumn (Where Is Your Boy?)
by Fall Out Boy

Album :
Submitted by : elle*
Corrected by :
Rated : 9.9 (18 votes)

where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town.

when i wake up, im willing to take my chances on the hope you hate him
more than you notice i wrote this for you.

you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying.
thats more than i can say for him.

where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town.

someday ill appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you.. but for the
meantime ill sport my brand new fashion of waking up with pants on at
4 in the afternoon

you need him. i should be him... i could be an accident but im still trying.
thats more than i can say for him.

where is your boy tonite? i hope he is a gentleman.
and maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this
part of town. (repeat

ThE WeekEnd

2004-05-30T18:43:00.000-07:00

ok well i absolutely positively did NOT want to go to houston but of coarse i had NO choice...so friday i slept for a really long time then talked to matthew til i had to leave...mom made me drive til we got to Lake Charles...which is the last city in LA b4 u get to TX so i was tired an it was like 10 then we got to the hotel at like 12...it was SOOOO pretty where we were stayin an all the houses out there were just AMAZING i mean MILLION DOLLAR HOUSES WITH RANCHES! gorgeous! uhm so saturday i get woken up by this lil DINGING noise from my phone! haha matthew had wrote me a "GoOd MOrNiNg" message...or so he SAYS hahah it was funny tho! yeh but not at 7 in the mornin! lil LOSER! so uhm then we get dressed an venture to magnolia texas...we played games allll day an i got hurt =( i have a HUGE strawberry on my leg an then the SAME leg i pulled a muscle or deep bruised it or tore it...were not too sure i jus know its PAINFUL! o we won by the way...and i hit a triple an hit from the left side alot...uhm that night we got done aroun 11 an i called the boys they were on the way home from clay walker...NO FAIR! =( then me an mom went to the hotel...but we decided we needed food so we went to IHOP when we got back we went to bed...this mornin when i turned my fone back on i had a message from wesley an it was MY FAVORITE SONG! grand theft AUTUMN haha GREAT song...made me smilee...we drove for days home..an i talked to my lil boys they have been at the resevior...NOT FAIR! but o well..its ok...tomorro i was supposed to go with them but well rain an bo-bo's so i dunno we will see? aw i got an adorable bathing suit! its SO cute..but uhmmmmm yeh i need to wash my face brush my teeth an get the heating pad on my leg~!

My MaGnIfIcEnT dAy!~

2004-05-27T21:29:00.000-07:00

hi hi i dont really know how long exactly its been since i wrote but uhm tuesday me britt an ali an jess all laid out all day it was funn =) then i had practice an i got nailed in the ear it hurt =( uhm yesterday i didnt do much went to riggs an to walmart with jess then me an matt went to see troy las nite it was SO good...WOW bRaD PiTT! ahhhh soooo sexxxxxyy....uhm but my lil matthew an drew got mad at me =(...i PROMISED id make it up to them....today i went to eat lunch with the cuties an then me an matthew went to drews to get his knee board...we had fun matthew is so adorable...haha we had our lil "love fights" they r cute..annnn then me an him went to his hizzy an watched blow...he was like amazed that i had neevr seen it...thennn i came to the house an changed for gay softball uh yeh we have to go to freakin houston texas this weeken how bad does that suck! i wanna go to the resevior with the boys SOOOOOO bad! maybe monday? anywaysss its BeD TiMe!!! =)

HuNgRy SleEpY aNd HaPpY =)

2004-05-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

haha yeh i know the 7 dwarfs...well thats how i feel rite now so...today was actually pretty good actually..my parents have been gay as usuall but i dont care...this mornin i woke up real early an i took ali to cheer..then i went back to sleep..i ALLLLMOST over slept but i woke up an got her an britt...britt is such a sweetie shes spent allll day with us...uhmwe went to sonic at like 9:30 an got some food...11 freakin dollars worth! those lil things can EAT! then at 11 we went to lexis's an went swimmin haha me an britt lifted ali in full's an libs it was so much fun...then i ran some errands with jess...we came home an cleaned...i napped....rode the 4 wheeler for a while havent done that in FOREVERRRR...then i talked to drew an we figured out wut tiem we were goin to the movies..an i got dressed an he picked me up...we saw shrek it was so precious...that sweet lil kittttyyyyyy =) then afterwards we went to matthews but he like ran outside an was like GET ME AWAY FROM HERE! so we left but we came back an laid in the bed an talked i was so so so tired! haha he kept hittin my tummy cus it sounds like a watermelon! hes so cute...precious lil friend =) haah sooo shady! o we talked to THE SHADY ONE matt today ahah..drews so sweet i love that boy...but anyways i have 2 lil girls in my bed so look like im sleepin in alis bed tonite nitenite

Just a comment

2004-05-23T18:58:00.000-07:00

i read auddies blog today an aw she had the quote i wrote on her blog an i was like wow...something I said actually made someone think...tehy could like relate...HOW AWESOME is that? hah it made me really happy...anyways uhmmm tonight has been amazingly boring ahha everyone ive called hasnt had time for me its kinda pissed me off...o well its ok...im soo soo tired u know how when u get burnt it makes u tired...well im burnt an got about 4 or 5 hours of sleep so yeh im BEAT...of coarse i KNOW i wont go to bed...i need a bath haha ANOTHER one...im watchin good will hunting and its really sad...ive neevr seen it before...but i like it...uhm well im gonna find a song to put on here and then leave it at thattt i guess thats it...

*thanks for the tip meredith =)
She Will Be Loved
by Maroon 5

Album : Songs About Jane
Submitted by : Lexie
Corrected by : Charlotte
Rated : 9.9 (232 votes)

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try to hard to say goodbye

ThE WiLd WeEkEnD

2004-05-23T16:18:00.000-07:00

hey blog well u know how u think something is gonna be HORRIBLE and u dread it...thats how i felt bout New orleans this weeken...i knew it was gonna suck but it didnt! of coarse we didnt do well but thats ok! uhm i guess i wrote friday nite huh? well wesley kept me up for a bit then i went to bed i guess aroun 1? well i woke up the next mornin an got in the back seat an fell asleep...when i woke up we were on the bridge so we were almost there...we stopped at mcdonalds...an i sat the 1st game..which is fine it was hott! ater that tho i played every game...i couldnt hit at alll all tournament....it was terrible, but other than that i did pretty good...uhm we lost to some retarded team twice saturday an mike was mad but he decided we could still go to bourbon street....WOW yeh i had the time of my life....i was kinda gross i hadnt taken a shower all day i had on barely to none make up and my hair was back..but i got all this attention...haha the 1st time we walked down we were all together and we kept tryin to get in clubs but they wuldnt let us...we saw all kinds of crazy stuff a vampire and ugly girls flashin an strippers an gay guys...it was nuts..i saw these guys on a balcony an i like waved to them an they all threw me beads but all the people around kept catchin um so this guy walks in the house an back out with a whole thing of them an tosses them down to me i was like YYYYEEAAAHHH haha and there was all these lil mexican sailors runnin around haah i dunno what was up with that omg we saw this hott guy an i smiled at him an he like waved his sign at me an stuff an jenn wanted to take a pic with him so i was like iight ill ask an i was like will u take a pic with me an he was like sure so jenn took a pic of us =) ooo oo i almost left out a hillarious story! uhm after i got my wad of beads this woman was like come here so i did an everyone folowed an she was like ill give u this whole bag of beads if U shows me ur..well u know..to lindsey an lindsey was like NO! i cant! then she saw carrie an she like chased her ahah it was so funny...but we met back at 12...an mike was like alrite yall have another hour...so me ll an lindsey all started back...all the guys on the balconies were callin me shoes cus of my pink tennies...an then i met THE BOSS...haha he was awesome he was really sweet an pretty cool...ahha he came up to me with the CHEESIEST line tho he goes im gonna have to write u a ticket an i was like what why? an he was like ur not smilin! an i was like aww! haha then i find out that the whole time ive been on a web cam an theres like a circle of people aroun me yellin an the balcony an stuff an im like ahhhh! i dont like bein the center of attention!!! an im like holdin the dude i jus met like help!! an lindsey an ll are like tryin to talk me into it an im like NO im not the dirt of the group!!! there was one guy on the balcony that was SOOOO hott...then THE BOSS tells us we can go up to the balcony an were like AWESOME so we go to get up there an "weird al" stops us haha so we go get my foreign friend (not really jus new york) haha an hes like its cool so weird al goes away then linz runs after some bouncer an were like WHAT? so my friend tries to help...but he didnt...we couldnt find her....so me an ll walked an looked for her...haha on the way we saw an dancin guy stripper that was really hott so she made me ask for a pic an we took a pic then we went back but got in trouble cus we were late! it was crazy but awesome...today we lost to the thrillers shoulda won but o well its k...i finally met some one who likes MAYER as much as me ahah carrie loves him too!! =) im kinda frustrated at wesley cus hes been a punk an hasnt had TIME for me...so uhm an matt an matthew an drew are all at ole miss..they went for the baseball games..AW ole miss lost! it sucked i watched saturdays game while we were at outbak...anyways thats bout it ill write later HuGsS =)

NOthing is Coincidence....is it?

2004-05-21T19:05:00.000-07:00

im not sure why i put that as my title but i guess bcus ive been thinkin alot about how everything happens for a reason...you know things fall apart so other things can fall together an sometimes even thought U dont think its the best thing for u...in the end it is...bcus thats the path ur life is supposed to take...or well thats what i think anyways...what do i know....

anywayss uhm i neever laid out today instead me an ali watched biker boyz an laid aroun the house...mom is still bein hateful..were leavin at 5:30 in the mornin for N.O. im not in the mood for softball but its ok i guess.. i havent talked to wesley much this week and that sorta bugs me...i kinda miss him...but hes been in trouble an ive been busy...matthew went to oxford today an drew is goin tomorro an matt has to work tomorro so i really wont be missin much by being in N.O. tonight ive been watchin Degrassi hahah my lil kid soap an my so called life...haha NOgGgIn is Terrific!~ im a lil bit lonely tho haha ive been playin snood...ahah wow should have made fun of matt bcus i suck at it too i havent played in SOOOO long! but uhm yeh thats all thats happenin i guess ill write sunday?

I dArE YoU tO mOvE

2004-05-21T18:56:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

I dare you to move...Switchfoot

1sT dAy Of SuMmMeRrR

2004-05-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

heyy blog i got online las nite jus to write to u but i um well i didnt...las nite was fun i cant explain why bcus we did NOTHING its jus i love bein with those boys...they r my FAVORITE....uhm mom was bein gay so i jus got dressed an went to mattys an matthew was huntin on the computer while my lil love was gettin dressed so i hunted to haha well i pretended anyways...basically i talked to matthew haha then matt played haha he was a lil rusty...i was his helper toooo haha PhOnE bOy was constantly on the phoneeee and we were waitin on drew to get off work...which was at "DARK"? i thought like 8 or 7:30 o no he didnt get there til like 9:30 haha so matt started playin snood an i sat there with matthew an we fought haha play fight...me an matthew have a love hate thing i really cant explain it...we love each other but its so much fun to play liek we hate each other haha we were like flippin over the weights an stuff wrestlin an i was wearin a skirt i was like AH this is bad! haha omg matt could NOT play snood it was terrible and i kept telllllllin him off the walls but they refused! then phone boy got another fone call so me an matt talked an went down stairs....finally drew got there an phone boy was done...so we went to hooters haha matt was the race car driver we went through byram an they were like utoh btown is kickin an i was like NO SIR! ahah so we kept goin i told matthew the whole story an he was like WOW yeh...nothin to say to that one...an then hugged me an was like well stef ur beautiful an i was like thanks buddy haha then we started fightin again....at hooters they all...wait i jus realized sumthin i cant spell the worl druel? i dunno o wutever they were lookin at them thought one was like gorgeous but she looked dirty to me haha coarse ever since las summer theyve called me lil dirty ...anyways so matthew freaks bout rentin a movie but none of the places were still open so we went back to matts an me an drew make them watch master of disguise haha actually we didnt make them but we told them bout it...haha drew called me the butt queen cus shes in that movie an i was like u gettin smart? an he was like no its a CoMpLiMeNt i was like yehyeh...then towards the end of the movie i laid in matts chair with him awww he fell alseep =) so cute...then i went byebye...we had alot of fun doin nothing tho..i love them...today i think im bout to lay out...im so white its gross...so uhm yeh thats the plan ill ttul byee

Its Summer timee

2004-05-20T14:11:00.001-07:00

hey blog i finished my exams today an well as u can see i am NOT happy...i have never ever ever had a C in my life and now i have 2 for the nine weeks...i really jus wanna cry it sucks SO bad im gonna bein SO much trouble and mom isnt helpin matters...i have softball in N.O. this weeken an itll jsu be me an dad..if we go friday nite then me an carrie are gonna go out but i dunno we prolly wont..tonight me an matt an drew an jessy an maybe matthew are all plannin on goin out i dunno somewhere cheap cus me jess an drew have no money..but we havent talked to them today so i dont really know wut is goin on...ive talked to matthew earlier but he was out with the mom but anyways i jus thought id fill u in...ive been at alexis's for a lil bit layin out...i didnt get anything tho...an im tired i think im gonna take a nap byee

Its Summer timee

2004-05-20T14:11:00.000-07:00

JuSt AnOtHeR cRaZy DaY =)

2004-05-19T18:15:00.000-07:00

Hey blogg this mornin i was so amazingly tired i had stayed up late studyiin again an it had kicked my butt...but i looked alrite i guess...i thought i had doen really good on my chem test but english i just KNEW i had bombed...me an cass an jess all talked durin our break everyone was pissin us off SO bad bossin us aroun tellin us to move WHY DOES IT REALLY MATTER???? but anyways i ended up bombin yet another chem test....THANK goodness its over...now i jus have to do OK on my trig....after school me an jess an ali all got in the lexus an headed north...we were goin to go eat with drew an matthew but they were punks so we left em haahha then we went to target an got some stuff then walmart afterwards we went to the timewarner place and on the way home we passed lil brian!! awwwwww so we waved an then he came to the apt. ahhaha we like laid on the floor since the furniture wont come in til 2morro...hahah we made fun of his penguin boxers...lil brian i LOOOVVVEEE my brian! but uhm then we went an got my car an me an ali came home...i studied a bit...took a nap...and called matty...me an matt went to church gah i LOVE that boy haha he was gonna go to drews but i think he was sleepy so he went home an me an nanahead stressed about math...mom has gone psyco an turned off my phone but OOOOO WELLLLL ONEEEE MOOOOREEEE DAYY

AnOtHeR gReAt DaY =)

2004-05-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

hi there bloggie...uhm las nite i talked to my matt while i did notecards...that boy is so great...ahah i want him =) then i studied while i talked to lil wesley..uhm ok but i stayed up til 12:30 studyin an this mornin i got up an got dressed for school...uhm i think i did ok on my exams..2morro will be a diff story...but after exams i went an got al gal an jess came an got us...we went an ate at red lobster haha an we talked bout our hook ups hahah CRAZINESSSSSSSS an everything else under the sun! our waiter was like psyco stalker he kept like buttin in on our convo an jus like sittin at our table,..we were like uh GO ON! then we went to the dentist YUCK! no fun no fun i got yelled at bout my retainers an i have to get sealants AGAIN! least i dont have to get my wisdom teeth out yet! he thinks he will only have to remove 2 if he does any! but then we went to the mall an got jess a comforter JUS LIKE MINE =) shes movin in the APT thursday! im gonna stay with her awwww! me an her are like BFF now ahah us an our boys...we bought her an her daddy bathroom rugs too...then we went to target an looked at stuff an made a WEEK plan! then we got to steinmart an i called mike to tell him bout my exams...he said hed let e go early which was GREAT while we were in steinmart daddy called to tell me it was bout to rain REAL bad an he didnt want me in the storm...so we were gonna buy MR WONDERFUL key chains but mine didnt have a belt so we left...we drove 30 on the interstate ahah an were laughin an bringin up friday nite GAH we had SO much fun...we were like bout to turn in spring lake to see the APT an lightening struck us! we were like AHHHHHHHH! my hairs stood up! it was scaryyyyyy an the lexus was goin swimmin!! it was SOOOO funny then we get to my house an im locked out so we go to mals ahahahahha that was GREAT i like mess up matthews umbrella an then like the windows are all fogged an we cant go anywehre so jess OPENS THE WINDOWS while its comin a hurricane an we get drenched! ahahhaha it was SO funny...she sat in my drive way lettin the windows air for like decades! then i went to softball hit then came home ate slept studied called my matt...then studied then talked to matthew then jess an drew on here an now im studyin again...BIG CHEM TEST 2morrrrro! loveeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuu kiss kiss

LaSt WhOle DaY oF sChOoL =)

2004-05-17T16:04:00.000-07:00

hello again dear blog wog and how are you today? im great this mornin i was a lil tired but i got dressed all pretty anyways...then i was late but thats ok...1st period we watched we were soldiers...i really like that movie..2nd we never accomplish ANYTHING...break i dont really member wut i did...3rd YUCK I HATE THAT MAN! hahah me an dale an jess talked bout our PlAn hahahha....then 4th we got a study guide an i made up my las thing...5th we like partied!~ aw in 4th i started cryin cus of scholarship stuff...ahha everyone had a comment bout wut i was wearin cus i was super dressed up i was like aw i jus felt like lookin prettty! alot of people liked it tho...at lunch i called my matthew an he was goin to rescue my fone so he met me an nana at mazzios...aw such a SWEET boy he like came to byram JUST for me =) i lovvvvvve you! haah ANNA AND I told our weekley guys are dirt story an it makes me so mad that someone would treat ANNA that way,...i mean me im fine im used to it haha u know i even prolly deserve it...but anna shes amazing and worth SO much it makes me SO mad that someone like him could try to make her feel worthless! ahha when we got back to the school terry an don were like wut yall jus come an go as yall please an we were lik epsh yehhhh we own this school! an they laughed ahha they know its true! i have history an eco to study tonight but i dont feel like it rite now...ive had the hickity ups allll day and its drivin me nuts! when i got home from school i took a RAIN NAP and wow it was great....so now im bout to uhm either lay down or eat ill write laterrrrrrrrrr love ya kisssses

MaYer SoNg Of ThE DaY =)...

2004-05-16T21:40:00.000-07:00

its JOHN MAYER COVERED IN RAIN bcus well i want someone to love me that way!~ an well its been rainin lately so u know i thought rain,rain haah yeh u know
These days, with the world getting colder,
She spends more time sleeping over
Than I planned.

Tonight we're gonna order in,
Drinking wine and watchin CNN.
It's dark I know, but then again
It's the brightest thing I got

When I'm covered in rain
Now, I'm covered in rain, rain, rain, rain

Fireworks to fire places
Summer snow and fallen places
Now we're people watching other people, people watching you and I
Standing by the missing signs at the CVS by the checkout line
Put your tiny hands in mine
Cause you're the brightest thing I got

When I'm covered in rain
Cause I'm covered in rain, rain, rain, rain
Cause I'm covered in rain
No I'm covered in rain

It's alright
If you dont wanna, go home
It's alright
If you dont wanna, be alone
Oh It's alright
If you dont wanna go home

I understand, I understand,
I understand, I understand now

WhenI'm covered in rain
Now, I'm covered in rain
No, I'm covered in rain, rain, rain, rain
I'm covered in, covered in, covered in rain

Amazing Isnt it?

2004-05-16T11:45:00.000-07:00

Its amazing isnt it, how you can have this connection to someone and you believe with all your heart that its completely real, completely GENUINE. Then you wake up the next mornin and realize it was all a lie. It was just a bunch of words. He didnt mean any of it, and you, well all you really are, and will ever be, is a safty net. The thing is you knew this all along. You didnt just discover it, but there is this part of you, deep down, that knows there is a reason you are in his life. So, you stay, not because you have to, not even because you want to, but because you know you need to.

las nite i stayed home...matt still has my cell fone so i think im goin over there today...but uhm at like 10 me an ali an pug laid on the couch an watched tuck everlasting...i cried my lil eyes out...GAHHHHHHHH it was SO sad! my dad made fun of me for cryin so much! then i watched crossroads again cus brad an john were on again =)they r so adorable..then i talked to thomas for a lil bit...i stayed online for a real long time...cus i was gonna force myself to stay up so i could talk to wesley...and at 1 i called him....we talked for a while an he told me all about his lil adventure...we uhm talked bout some OTHER stuff to but he didnt really wanna talk bout it so i quit an kept my mouth shut...at liek 2 i think i fell asleep haha but i know i was still mumblin to him..then i went to bed...i was supposed to get up for church this mornin but i slept too late...mom has been in a real bad mood ALL day,...but uhm o i messed up limewire las nite but i FIXED it haha cus im bob the builder =) aw im listenin to keith urban you'll think of me..it makes me wanna cry haha matt told me to download it a while back,...im SO glad hes home..haha i missed him SOOOO much...i remembered how much i liked him friday haha hes absolutely great..but uhm i guess thats it for now...ali wants a french bulldog so shes been printin out pics....im not sure how 2 dogs in this house would work tho...? anyways ill write later i LLLOOVVVVEEE U =) kiSsS KiSsSS =)

AnOtHeR SwEeT mAyEr SoNg!~

2004-05-15T22:24:00.000-07:00

Come Back To Bed
by John Mayer

Album : Heavier Things
Submitted by : Alyssa
Corrected by :
Rated : 9.7 (10 votes)

Still is the life
of your room when you're not inside
All of your things tell the sweetest story line
your tears on these sheets
And your footsteps are down the hall
Tell me what I did
I can't find where the moment went wrong at all

You can be mad in the morning
I'll take back what I said
Just don't leave me alone here
Its cold,baby

Come back to bed
come back to bed
come back to bed
come back to bed

(come on back to me)

What will this fix
you know you're not a quick forgive
And I won't sleep through this
I survive on the breath you are finished with

You can be mad in the morning
I'll take back what I said
Just don't leave me alone here
Its cold,baby

Come back to bed
come back to bed
come back to bed
come back to bed

(guitar)

You can be mad in the morning
Or the afternoon instead
But don't leave me
98 and 6 degrees of seperartion from you, baby

Come back to bed
come back to bed
come back to bed
why dont you come back to bed

Dont hold your love over my head
dont hold your love over my head
dont hold your love over my head
dont hold your love over my head
dont hold your love over my head
dont hold your love...

HeLLo GoRgEoUs =)

2004-05-15T12:25:00.000-07:00

hi blog wuts happenin....uhm las nite i got dressed up for gad an jess came an got me...then we went to get nikki...my dress was too big cus of losin weight from bein sick! i was pissed! haha but we got to thalia an went inside...grad was sad...i guess jus cus brian an ryan an scott an josh an lb an cari...i was close to them....hahah afterward....o gosh....it was POURING an we were all under one lil umbrella! it wasnt good...we looked like lesbians! mrs bridges let jess under hers! we were CRACKIN up it was SOOO funny...then we wanted food an i missed my matt an matthew an drew so we went an got them...omg at matts it was POURING again...an we like ran in the rain! matthew got me an umbrella for the car haah an we all piled in the LeXuS haha jess was scarin us cus it was rainin so bad an we thought we were gonna DIE! haah an i got put in matthews lap...but i was baically layin on all of them..the ride home was soo funny tho...we let drew drive since hes the other lexus driver haha an we like played change seats 30000 times...aw we squashed poor matt tho! i some how ended up in jess;s lap then matts an then matthews...then we went to matts an all laid down an talked it was some FUNNY stuff...me an matthew fought as usual ahah our lil love hate thing...then we were leavin so i was layin with mathew an huggin him an jess was with matt then we switched ahah an i kissed matt bye like 9 times then jess was like ok im leavin u! so i was like fineeeee haha bye! an i said bye to matthew an drew an ran out in the rain...i left my dang foen over there ahha so matthew is now the fone keeper...ahha im SUPPOSED to go out to soem cook out with them tonight but i dont htink i am cus of the rain an drivin back an stuff...so i get home an i talk to wesley an then i get a beep an i was like O MY GOSH its AMAZING haha...an wesley gets a lil mad but its ok...i needed that "talk"....wesley went to show fest so i wont talk to him 2day...so i called him back at 3 an talked to him til 3:30 cus i fell asleep...he wasnt mad....i was so tired cus i went to bed so late an my dang fone rings at 10! an i was liek wuhhhhht! so i answer an im like what do u want! an matthew was like WAKE UP! an i was like uhhhhhh shill out sunshine....haha an we talked then i went back to bed...ive been tryin to call jess but i cant get her! an i dont have matt's number so im stuck aha but i watched CROSSROADS! OMG JOHN MAYER AN BRAD PAISLEY WOWWWWWWWW! aw they were talkin bout bein hopeless romantics....an i was like me too mee too...an they were like were jus like eevryone else...we all sit down an write letters that say EVERYTHING...but most of us the next mornin read it an are like wow thats TOO deep an throw it away...that they write about emotions that are carved in stone...we have all felt them =) gahhhh i love themm....john mayer is SO cute an so is mr paisley ahah...i was in heaven...and when they sang COME BACK TO BED>>> AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =)anyways im downloadin paisley mayer songs so i will write later taterrrr lovvvvvvvvve ya kissssssess

~~FrIeNdS aRe LiKe ShOeS~~

2004-05-14T13:29:00.000-07:00

HahA you like that dont u anna! ok so lemme explain the title....i had a TOTALLY blonde moment an i read somethin that said friends are like shoes...an it said u can never have enough...an i THOUGHT it said friends are like shoes..i like shoes! haha an anna thought it was GREAT so u know wut anna...FRIEND AAAAARRRRREEE like shoes....I LIKE THEM! hahah =) uhm but on to today...wow its been an OUTSTANDING day =)i woke up kinda tired...me an lil wes had a up all nite party haha...then i talked to DALIO for a moment...an it was bed time...so this mornin was ruff...but i looked cute since i spent NO time on the hair an scrunched it...i was gonna wear jessys GORGEOUS pink silk skirt but it was gross outside so i am monday =) so i get dressed an i looked cute which made me in a good mood...history we watched part of we were soldiers...GREAT movie...then 2nd we well...i dont know WHAT we did mrs wharton is a NUT! at break i found jess an made plans 4 2nite..then i went to talk to my lil dale an bart an it was fun...then i saw lil robert haha cute lil boy..so i went an talked to him an his friends...he is really sweet...so is his friends...if i ever like actually dated someone younger i would date him...but anyways..after break i walked with him for a few minutes then went to chem...yeh nothin goin on in there...me an that man had a FIGHT....he wont drop my 0 bcus of tardies! an itll give me a C if he doesnt! so i told blue...he said he wuld fix it! =) then 4th stressed me out so we went to the library...5th i turned in some comunity service and talked to claire an mrs bridges bout rachel's wreck =( it was sad....then ahhaa OMG 5th periods lesson was....OLDER + YOUNGER= JAILBAIT JAILBAIT= 5YRS BHIND BARS! hahaha i have a feelin it was for me an brannon =) i LOVEEEEEEE my BRANNON! we called him cradle robber...an then durin lunch anna was like WAIT! u cant say anything! i was like hey were JUST friends! an mrs bridges an mrs wharton an a bunch of kids said i like made roberts day...me robert anna coldy an aud an matthew r all gonna go out next weeken haha...robert doesnt know yet tho..awwwww matthew parker is datin whitney! shes my cousin!!!!! =) hes so precious haha GO WHITNEY =) uhmmm hahaha OMG durin 4th me an anna were on the comp play with cards.....ANNA ITS YOUR DUTY! thennn lunch we went to talk to colby an we were talkin bout who all ali like in the hall an she heard!!! she went crazy ahhahaha...cute lil kid! i LOVE her! an then 6th ali had a party so we stole food YUM =)...uhm an then we talked bout "problems" and why i want to be a psychiatrist... im glad i have friends that listen an no where im comin from...=) LOVE YOU GIRLS! GRADUATION IS TONIGHHHHTTT! but my tum tum hurts an i have to go get al gal..so ill write laterrrrr bye blog baby =)HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS

ThE SoNg =)

2004-05-13T18:19:00.000-07:00

TO MY LIL BABY GIRL ALI CAT =):

Martina Mcbride, This one's to the girls:

This One's For The Girls
This for all you girls about thirteen
High school can be so rough, can be so mean
Hold on to onto your innocence
Stand your ground when everybodys giving in
This One's For The Girls
This for all your girls about twenty-five
In a little apartment just trying to get by
Living on , on dreams and spaghetti o's
Wondering when your life is gonna go
This Ones For The Girls
Whose ever had a broken heart
Whose wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This Ones For The Girls
Who love without holding back
Who'd dream with everything they had
All around the world
This Ones For The Girls
This for all you girls about fourty-two
Tossing pennies into the fountain of youth
Every laugh, laugh line on your face
Made you you you are today
This Ones For The Girls
Whose ever had a broken heart
Whose wished upon a shooting star
Your beautiful the way you are
This Ones For The Girls Who love without holding back
Who'd dream with everything they had
All around the world
This Ones For The GirlsYeah, we're all the same inside (same inside)
From 1 to 99
This One's For The Girls
Whose ever had a broken heart
Whose wished upon a shooting star
You're beautiful the way you are
This Ones For The Girls Who love without holding back
Who dream with everything they hadAll around the world
This Ones For The GirlsYeah this ones for the girls

FuLL TuMmY

2004-05-13T18:06:00.000-07:00

heyyyyyyy buddddy uhm im SO sad bobby left barnetts! he was the reason i went there! i was like mom where was he! an she was like he left...i was like NO u R KIDDING ME! so i was sad he was so sweet an cute! uhm then i went an did payroll....GUESSSSSSSSS WHAT! mom got 171.00 taken off my cell YEA! cus she told them bout the texts! im pumped! hahah...uhmmm SCHOOL IS ALMOST OUT...and yeh i have 364 days till i GRADUATE! =) me an ali jus went to florence to get food...an on the way we jammed...we heard martina mcbride this one is for the girls...yes i know how AMAZINGLY gay that is but i was like awww its for my awi! ahha an she laughed...so i sang it to her =) so then we came home an ate...im SO stuffed ive eaten like a PIGGGGG....anyway for some reason im in a TERRIFIC mood..mayb cus NO softball!!~=)...i havent gave dale the bad news yet...haha his tutoring wasnt a success...its my fault totally tho cus i waited to LUNCH to study! graduation is tomorro nite...and well whether i want it to or not...i have a feeling it will be extremely emotional...some of my BEST friends are gonna be up there...i dunno graduation seems so FINAL...even tho i know ill see them ALL summer...it jus scares me to know that thats it! they r done....but we will stay friends =) most of them are goin to hinds anyways....but uhmmmm i think im gonna go take a GREAT buBbBlY BaThH and find something amazingly cute to wear tomorro haha byeeeeeee =)

OnE MoRe DaY tIl FrIdAy

2004-05-13T14:31:00.000-07:00

hello hello...today was just grand...uhm i woke up an got dressed i have LOTS of lil friends on my face...uhm but i guess its ok..so then we get in the dent mobile...or my lil injured silver bullet..which ever...haha an uhm went to school..1st period i missed my nana head! then me an stef walked to AwArDs DaY...i was SO nervous bout honor roll....but i got it! haha thank goodness...honor roll, youth leadership an sci fair....haha it was so long! me an anna got pumped we thought wed get highest avg in PUBLICATIONS haha but noone did...judd rubbed my back an tickled it so i was relaxeddd,...then we stayed for pics...uhm well haha i didnt wanna go to chem so i stayed til break then me an tyler (such a cutie) walk to break...I ATE SOOOO MUCH...i ate my necterine...then tiff gave me a rice krispies treat it was liek the size of my face haha an me jay stef an chuck ate it...then drew my bestest bud was liek stef u need to EAT girl an gave me cheesecake an i was like drew i cant do this i am FAT an he was like NO U EAT IT! so i took it hahah i ate it on my certificates everyone was like UR NUTS! i was like hey its gay certificates i got tons at home itll be aiight then i gave the left overs to coop...eng we didnt do much ahha we took a "FIELD TRIP" to put stuff in mrs welchs car...then 5th i took a test...hopefully did well...uhm lunch me an dale studied an i sat with thomas! aw he sent me a sweet text =)it made me feel good =) ahah aw they all were talkin bout lil ali an how "hott" she is ahhaha CuTe! an i talked to lil robert today =) he is SO adorable! matthew was talkin bout how he is liek terrified to talk to me! its SO cute! anyways i jus got an estimate on the car...1000 worth of damage...we have to pay 500...kinda sucks but o well...were bout to go get em to order the parts..so im outtie! LOVE YA KISS KISS

A NoTe FrOm MeE

2004-05-12T18:49:00.000-07:00

hello hello im watchin the bachelor..haha we got done with prac at like 7 cus all we did was hit awww i played with baby blaire shes SO precious...then i brought the beat up car home an we went an got it gas haha matt my lil matt called awwww I LOVE HIM =) im SO glad hes home...=) summer is ALMOST here! gahhhhh i cant WAIT! school well i gotta apply for a few more days...im gettin honor roll tomorro YeA =/...uhm o i wanna read ya somethin well im def gonna edit it cus of bad words an offense things about people but ill give u the jist an the funny parts...u have to hear it cus it jus made me smile SO much durin lunch it really made me happy...happy enough that i got it out of the washin machine an blow dried it so i could save it =).....

THE NOTE:

hey stephany what u doin? well ive been sittin in ISS all day and got to thinkin of you and how domineering (haha what?) you are. i hope ur softball went good an that ************************ ***************** in the face. this coming weekend i dont care if you have an imperial banquet to go to ur coming with me miss "i cant talk to u because ur my **** boy" girl...well anway i got 4 kittens 9 cats 1 dog 2 horses and 200 cows that want to see you and give em goofy little names such as custard and cupcake and omg "socks" (boots) anyway i aint seen you in a good week (month) or so and my mom asked about u the other day....yeah really, being that u have not been at the house in a long time. my fourwheeler is still in one piece and my gate is still swingin (with a bend) we use to be good friends but now we hardly ever talk and we had some fun. though you never went turkey hunting w/ me which you promised its alrite because well i dont know mayve because im ur ***** is that right hahaha but anyway if you have already read to this far then ur probably thinkin to urself this guy is full of crap and i jus wasted 2 min of my time...ill let you go

I LOVE YOU
****** *******

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2004-05-12T12:49:00.000-07:00

ok so i know there r people who read this ALL the time..and there r people who know how much i HATE this being analyzed...so uhm jus so u know...theres a new lil FeAtUrE for u guys....its at the bottom of each post and it says "comments" if u click it and scroll to the bottom it will say post a comment...there u can say wutever it is u have to say about my blog...u can even remain anonymous...i dont care if u use the feature...thats wut its there for...but if its anything i dont approve of ill probably remove it so keep that in mind! =)

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I'm sorry bloGGy

You Are Glam Sexy

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MayBe OnE DaY

And its JuSt ANoThEr DayY...

In a relationship, when does the art of compromise become compromising? Carrie-s&c

All the Answers lie with in Sex and the City =)

All i want is Snow, U, and a Mercedes

WHAT IS A SLUT?

YOU ARE YOU AND I AM ME

HaPpPy HaPpPy TuRkEy DaY

everything always balances out

my week keeps gettin better...HA yeh rite

LIFE IS TOO SHORT...

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I GUESS SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE

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TO ***YOU***

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WAITING FOR YOU IS LIKE WAITING FOR RAIN TO END THE DROUGHT>>>ITS USELESS

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PARENTS SUCK

TO MY FRIENDS

HiHI

WELCOME BACK LIL BUDDY!

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JUST SOME SONGS =)

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my OK day and my REALLY bad nite

HiHi

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GREATTTTT SONG

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NOthing is Coincidence....is it?

I dArE YoU tO mOvE

1sT dAy Of SuMmMeRrR

Its Summer timee

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AnOtHeR gReAt DaY =)

LaSt WhOle DaY oF sChOoL =)

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Amazing Isnt it?

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